AM7 Log

[NOMAD]

Two points.

First, the program has you off balance, but it's intended to be subtle, regardless, so it doesn't pull you away from being able to function.  That does not mean it isn't happening.

Second, the harshness of AM6 was the expectation, and the reality is that 6.5G just plows through most resistance.  It IS kicking your ass - but it's doing it so well that you consciously experience it as easier than what you remember from Version 6.  That's not to say it's easy for you at a subconscious level.  But I'm trying to make it as smooth as possible so people will finish the program.  Some will experience more challenge consciously than others.

You did a damned good job with Stage 1. I was very impressed by it.

I'm currently listening to my first loop of Stage 2.

[NOMAD]

Stage 2 - Day 2

I've felt odd today. First off, i was really tired when i woke up this morning. I went on my usual morning walk, but I didn't feel the initial zest is become accustomed to with Stage 1.

I've felt extremely dazed where I've had a hard time reading, comprehending, and even focusing my eyes at times. But it oscillates to where I feel somewhat (but not quite) normal.

I've had a few instances where I felt some underlying anxiety. The anxiety was barely noticeable until I stopped and allowed myself to ponder the odd feeling I was experiencing. Then, I noticed the trembling which is something I tend to experience when a sub is pushing me to do something in scared of.

I've also been really sleepy at times throughout the day. I fell asleep at lunch. I expect to sleep really well tonight.

[NOMAD]

Stage 2 - Day 3

Today was much better.  I dare say that I was even a bit of a social butterfly, which is unusual for me. I never ran out of things to say...not once.

When i took my parents out for dinner tonight, I ran into a guy I used to work with. He didn't see me at first.  Normally, I wouldn't have gone out of my way to say hi, but tonight I did. Until now, I hadn't seen him  and his wife in over 20 years. There were hand shakes and hugs like we had never missed a beat. It felt good .

My behavior today is definitely out of character in the positive direction.

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Stage 2 - Day 6

The energy i had during Stage 1 has reduced significantly. I'm not sure if I'm resisting the script or if that's a side effect of all the processing.

The writeup was correct about one thing for sure...i had a zombie dream last night.

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Stage 2 - Day 6 (cont'd)

While walking this morning again this evening, I noticed that my posture was more upright and I was holding my chin higher than normal. It felt very natural. The last time I recall this happening was while running PM 5.11G.