09-17-2018, 10:18 AM
Right now things turn out to be tough. I have a couple of days left before diving into stage 3.
A broad feeling of being unsatisfied has grown, covering nearly all aspects. That on the other hand is building up pressure and demand for activity and change. But, for now, i don't feel being able to handle it - kind of as there is no start line and direction to rush.
I catch myself often at thoughts of victim mentality. But probably that has build up for years as a habbit, not being recognized or assumed as the way things are.
And now full focus and awareness hit these thought schemes, as soon as they pop up. Also it turns out i need a lot of effort to leave and stay out of these mental loops.
Probably next stage will shake up things way more.
A broad feeling of being unsatisfied has grown, covering nearly all aspects. That on the other hand is building up pressure and demand for activity and change. But, for now, i don't feel being able to handle it - kind of as there is no start line and direction to rush.
I catch myself often at thoughts of victim mentality. But probably that has build up for years as a habbit, not being recognized or assumed as the way things are.
And now full focus and awareness hit these thought schemes, as soon as they pop up. Also it turns out i need a lot of effort to leave and stay out of these mental loops.
Probably next stage will shake up things way more.
