01-16-2020, 11:52 AM
(This post was last modified: 01-16-2020, 12:11 PM by tolgaocal80.)
stage 3 day 3
Last week was tough for me. I was dealing with college exams. Today stage 3, third day.
My mental clarity is getting well. I am waking up morning very tranquil, and softly.
Neediness seems to be totally gone. Perfect feelings started again. My face sebum production reduced vastly a long ago. Now my face seems more healhty and clean.
Not noticed any physical changes after run 1. All of them allready had been showed up that run. Voice, body language, body structure, walking, talking, the way I say things, allready changed at all compared to me before. All these were outwardly results (and also I know that because of internal changes).
One year ago, I was trying to find something to let me fuck girls. Now this maybe the last thing I want. I think alphaness (or whatever you say self-realized etc.) is not about to be able to fuck women. this "just" a side effect of it. I am not saying this is not important or not required, but you know first things first, and I realized that first things were always about myself.
You know we are living on this planet in a body that getting older every day.
I dont know what capable of a man who really knows that he must die. I want to teach myself that I must die someday and I dont know that day. This is not about being a pessimist, introvert person. People including me acting in fear like we gonna live a thousand year. I was thinking Fear is the only reason to all things that I wanted to but I didn't do. I guess being in a fearless state is not enough.
its like you have a car, but you fear to drive long ways. and then you had powerfull enough to drive anywhere in country, but this time you dont know where to go.
I am trying to figure out this.
I will start studying English next days, I got some problems about tenses and grammer. sorry for misunderstood sentences.
Last week was tough for me. I was dealing with college exams. Today stage 3, third day.
My mental clarity is getting well. I am waking up morning very tranquil, and softly.
Neediness seems to be totally gone. Perfect feelings started again. My face sebum production reduced vastly a long ago. Now my face seems more healhty and clean.
Not noticed any physical changes after run 1. All of them allready had been showed up that run. Voice, body language, body structure, walking, talking, the way I say things, allready changed at all compared to me before. All these were outwardly results (and also I know that because of internal changes).
One year ago, I was trying to find something to let me fuck girls. Now this maybe the last thing I want. I think alphaness (or whatever you say self-realized etc.) is not about to be able to fuck women. this "just" a side effect of it. I am not saying this is not important or not required, but you know first things first, and I realized that first things were always about myself.
You know we are living on this planet in a body that getting older every day.
I dont know what capable of a man who really knows that he must die. I want to teach myself that I must die someday and I dont know that day. This is not about being a pessimist, introvert person. People including me acting in fear like we gonna live a thousand year. I was thinking Fear is the only reason to all things that I wanted to but I didn't do. I guess being in a fearless state is not enough.
its like you have a car, but you fear to drive long ways. and then you had powerfull enough to drive anywhere in country, but this time you dont know where to go.
I am trying to figure out this.
I will start studying English next days, I got some problems about tenses and grammer. sorry for misunderstood sentences.
AM6-1(4.19)--AM6-2(11.19)--SE-5.5G--AM6-3(9.20)--SE 5.5G(3.21)--AM6-S7(6.21)--SM3-1(7.2021)--AM6-4(1.2022)
"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker
"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker