01-28-2015, 01:16 AM
And depression strikes.
I suppose it's natural to have a low period after a period of intensity. Taking heart in Shannon's description of cycles. It's makes a lot of sense, but I know part of this at least is self imposed.
Couldn't get out of bed this morning for work. Nevertheless every day I've been resolved on doing somthing that scared me and today will be no different. Small things, sending an opinion around to my bosses on an email chain where I would have been silent. Critiquing some work my manager did. Down to refusing to do anything the other evening but relax - I'm deliberately taking action in going against the fearful voice that constantly panics about tomorrow, cries about yesterday and would have me thrown off a cliff.
It takes a lot of courage I realise to resolve on doing one thing at a time. Over extension, rushing, tends to come from fear, and only leads to a dead end anyway.
I suppose it's natural to have a low period after a period of intensity. Taking heart in Shannon's description of cycles. It's makes a lot of sense, but I know part of this at least is self imposed.
Couldn't get out of bed this morning for work. Nevertheless every day I've been resolved on doing somthing that scared me and today will be no different. Small things, sending an opinion around to my bosses on an email chain where I would have been silent. Critiquing some work my manager did. Down to refusing to do anything the other evening but relax - I'm deliberately taking action in going against the fearful voice that constantly panics about tomorrow, cries about yesterday and would have me thrown off a cliff.
It takes a lot of courage I realise to resolve on doing one thing at a time. Over extension, rushing, tends to come from fear, and only leads to a dead end anyway.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
