08-14-2014, 12:15 AM
I've had 7 nights of exposure, averaging 9 hours a day.
This time around I'm noticing much more intense emotions. I went to very deep depression and anxiety about work , which I cleared with my feft coach (I had to call an emergency session it was so bad and frankly I find tapping with someone is so much easier)
Yesterday I honestly felt like I couldn't go on with the shame of underperforming at work...which sounds bad but was good actually. It made me get to that place where I've got to succeed on my own terms, it's something I resist a lot, the temptation to make it in the same way as everyone else is too strong.
That feeling is less strong right now, and my only fear is that I've got to get desperate to get there again.
Generally people seem more chatty with me. I noticed that my boss rather than talk to me about work at a meeting (where I honestly thought I was gonna get destroyed), just ended up having a long pleasant conversation with me about general stuff.
I also can't help but look in the mirror and thing - damn I look good!
This time around I'm noticing much more intense emotions. I went to very deep depression and anxiety about work , which I cleared with my feft coach (I had to call an emergency session it was so bad and frankly I find tapping with someone is so much easier)
Yesterday I honestly felt like I couldn't go on with the shame of underperforming at work...which sounds bad but was good actually. It made me get to that place where I've got to succeed on my own terms, it's something I resist a lot, the temptation to make it in the same way as everyone else is too strong.
That feeling is less strong right now, and my only fear is that I've got to get desperate to get there again.
Generally people seem more chatty with me. I noticed that my boss rather than talk to me about work at a meeting (where I honestly thought I was gonna get destroyed), just ended up having a long pleasant conversation with me about general stuff.
I also can't help but look in the mirror and thing - damn I look good!
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
