03-12-2014, 02:03 PM
Day 52 - 59
Hey guys,
I have not been noticing some change recently apart from what I've already described in other posts. But what I'm noticing is that a lot of stuff are surfacing. Old fears manly like fear of being murdered, fear of being HIV + (I'll seriously need to test myself !), fear of going in jail,...
I am very introspective too and my emotions are on a rollercoaster. I think this stage is cleaning me from all the old crap I have inside my head.
I am also pushed to have sex. There is one guy at school who seems interested to me. I haven't talked to him before but he looks at me all the time. He's not the type of guy I want to make out with normally but I feel like I want to have sex with him anyways. He's not particularly good looking. I don't understand why. Maybe I'll go to speak to him some day and I'll see where this leads me. I am not that afraid of approaching anymore, when I think about the concept it seems somewhat natural but I haven't done it before. I am accustomed to other guys approaching me and not the other way around. I think I'll have to move. I really want to approached but something is holding me from doing it. Maybe I just have to push myself. I don't know, as I said, we'll see where this leads me !
Bye
-Adri
Hey guys,
I have not been noticing some change recently apart from what I've already described in other posts. But what I'm noticing is that a lot of stuff are surfacing. Old fears manly like fear of being murdered, fear of being HIV + (I'll seriously need to test myself !), fear of going in jail,...
I am very introspective too and my emotions are on a rollercoaster. I think this stage is cleaning me from all the old crap I have inside my head.
I am also pushed to have sex. There is one guy at school who seems interested to me. I haven't talked to him before but he looks at me all the time. He's not the type of guy I want to make out with normally but I feel like I want to have sex with him anyways. He's not particularly good looking. I don't understand why. Maybe I'll go to speak to him some day and I'll see where this leads me. I am not that afraid of approaching anymore, when I think about the concept it seems somewhat natural but I haven't done it before. I am accustomed to other guys approaching me and not the other way around. I think I'll have to move. I really want to approached but something is holding me from doing it. Maybe I just have to push myself. I don't know, as I said, we'll see where this leads me !
Bye
-Adri
