AM 5.0 Journal

[AlphaScorpio]

In terms of stages, stage 3 has been the most doubt-filled, resistance, turbulent stage so far, stage 2 was kinda nasty cause I was always in bs detector mode but this stage 3 is some real internal turmoil shit, feels like Im being ripped up on the inside and Im trying to find out who I am and how I should act, ego is very present at the moment and it pisses me off.

Hope things smooth out in stage 4

I had that in Stage 3 as well, and I'm still noticing it in Stage 4. Though Stage 4 did start out well for me, I guess it just depends on how much resistance you have and how much you need to grow to meet the program's expectations, if you will.

I definitely agree that you should forget about it though. Try to focus on things in your life you want to do and it'll be able to work less obstructed, imo.

I think Stage 3 is forcing me to make some real changes and I am very uncomfortable making alot of those changes, the fact I feel torn up inside is proof to me, the confusion etc. I will take your advice and try to focus on what I want in real, present life. Some days I just have so much inner crap and doubt/negativity that its hard to believe and have faith.

Im thinking of using OGSF after AM 5 and before AM 6 to get rid of some crap before the clean out phases of stage 1.

I should mention, a weird manifestation happened the other day, Me and my friend were walking to the pub and we had no money to have a game of pool so I said out loud "Please, law of attraction, I really want 5 pounds for a game of pool, I want to play so bad" and then I forgot about it and carried on walking down the street towards the pub, Just outside the pub my friend goes "WTF!?" I turned around and saw him pick up a 5 pound note off of the floor, we were completely span out lol, a few of those sorts of manifestations have happened during AM, kinda weird, coincidence?