AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded

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Day 3

Man, it was really rough yesterday. I felt terribad for half the day, but then I fell asleep, slept some 8 hours, felt better, slept 2-3 more, now feeling relatively fine. There was some serious emotional pain being released.

Got supplies for the retreat. I still don't feel like going, but I'll go, eh.

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Day 7.

Back from the reatreat. Everyone was very nice, and one of the instructor chicks was a right hottie, but other than that it wasn't anything to write home about.

I'm feeling low-key depressed most of the day, and neeed to take naps every now and again - just had one and I had dreams (throughout the retreat, I had none, but also wasn't taking naps and just got my 8 hrs of Zs each night).

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Day 9 (loop day - next loop Saturday)

Feeling a little bit better but still morose. Focusing on healing mostly. Singing practice is going well but I'm really down I don't have anywhere to show of my skills, truly, and get some career momentum going for a change.

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Day 10

Feeling significantly better. Looking into some ways of manifesting job success through various avenues as I could really use some additional ooomph here.

Had some really wonky dreams, some of them very sexual in nature actually.

I have a new psychologist chick, she seems fine for now. We'll see how this develops.

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Day 12

Felt way worse yesterday. I guess this is the process of healing, hopefully, and it's gonna get better after.

I'll only be doing a 1 month run of Stage 0 this time around as I don't want to stagnate into non-stop healing here, and then I'll switch to something else. Either OSC 6G or DMSI 6g, although I'd be great if 6.5G versions became available (and DRS 6.5G to go along with it).

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Today, I got really depressed, then pissed off, then had one hell of a productive singing practice session. Funky stuff.

Anyway, nothing much is happening, apart from the fact that pianist chick invited me to a gig of hers next week. I'll try to show up. I'm actually interested in seeing her perform.

EDIT

Oh yeah, I also purchased DMSI 5.2. So without FRM and DRS. I'm planning to give it a shot once I finish this month of Stage 0 6.5 G.

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Day 13 - loop day - next loop Wednesday

Man, last night was pretty rough, but I managed to sleep it off and now I'm feeling better. Also garnered quite a bit of insight after.

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Day 14

I need a break from subs, especially healing and OGSFing ones for a bit here, definitely. Not the programs' fault - I may have overdone it a touch (and I really need to learn more discipline to take breaks in-between runs of subs), now it's time recuperate, enjoy what I achived using them (which is a lot, but I was a maroon and kept pushing instead of letting it settle) and then get back to it after a wee break. My switichng of programs before the runs are finished is definitely a resistance response, but I'll revisit healing subs after taking a break for them in 6.5G versions! With DRS.

Anyway, now I'll be taking a bit of a break from subs and then switichn' to DMSI 5.2 + DRS v2 6G (I really need a break from healing, OGSFing, FRMing and all that) whilst awaiting 6.5G re-releases.

Beginning to feel pretty good again and I think I've got this, though. I have some new funky manifestation tools which I'll be trying out in the interim, and will continue - very gently, though - with my healing efforts by using my energetic stuffies.

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Had several hours yesterday when I felt very good, for the first time in a long time, it would seem. Great feeling, hoping to get more of it. I got hit by some pretty heavy stuff back on Saturday, though. A nice change of pace. I could go for being in a good mood for a change for a bit.

Anyway, today I spent a lot of time looking for singing opportunities online (found zilch that would interest me) and then translation/editing jobs (applied to one).

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Break's soon coming to an end. So - DMSI 5.1 or 5.2 (with DRS)?

I'm tired of all that emotional healing, but I'm still on it (using energetic stuffies for trauma healing and stored negative emotional release, and such), I just really have to pace myself with it.