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AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-22-2026
Okay, so having decided I still need/want more healing from all the nonsense, I elected to do another run of Stage 0, this time in 6.5G.
I've had about a month's break from Stage 0 6G by now.
The nearest professional singing opportunity I've got is in October, so that's actually, like, 4 months. We'll see whether I *need* 4 months anyway. Hopefully less.
I know it's unmanly, but I'll be using an auxillary shield with some reflective properties, as well as my other thingies.
Planning to take it easy for the upcoming week, only one translation thing I wanna do.
I really wanna heal up ASAP, I'm tired of living like this and feeling like crap all the time.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-22-2026
Huh. Based on first loop listen, I'm really rather amazed at how big of a difference there is between 6G and 6.5G, even though the scripting's remained unchanged as far as I am aware.
Way smoother, way more pleasant. Doesn't turn me into an angry boi while keeping up with the healing.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-22-2026
Definitely starting to feel better. My voice also is naturally starting to descend into deeper placement which can have quite the effect on people.
Wonky sensations are indicative of core trauma getting worked on.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-23-2026
Back to healin', I guess. I'd love a single day without reflectively thinking back onto the mobbing morons from my last project and various other shit-heels who've destroyed my health/life over the years.
I do have a thingy now that should help with that, I just gotta keep using it consistently.
Made some changes to my energetic stuffies. Now it's a very compact stack which has everything I want/perhaps need. And I'd love to get it working properly.
An aunt of mine died yesterday (me crazy mum's very crazy older sister). I never liked her, she was crazy and extremely annoying. But oh well. Me mum's like, "lol, whatever" apparently. She won't have anyone to call up now and argue about bullshit with, whatever she's gonna do, lewl.
The depression symptoms have dialed down considerably. I guess they were mostly there due to the lack of Emotional Pain Relief in DMSI, while it was working through all the nonsense anyway to get itself to execute fully.
Honestly? I'd rather be running DMSI, or OSC, and not Stage 0, but I guess the damage is significant and I need to heal up ASAP in order to regain full functionality, let alone go on to achieve other things. So thanks for that, everyone involved, oyy.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-23-2026
In a pretty sullen mood. Still, singing practice is going great, I'm noticing a definite manlinity increase in the way I carry myself/walk an' all that (I'm very attuned to that due to my training.)
Still, I'm not raging or anything, and whilst I'm still getting flasbacks and suchlike I'm responding to them in a calm, yet somewhat tired manner. As if I found myself having to repeteadly tell off someone who just doesn't get it.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-24-2026
Slept a bunch and I feel way better now. Funky dreams for a couple hours, then restful sleep. Getting there.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-24-2026
Wonky sensations time:
The unpleasant, painful wonky sensations in the right foot appear to have stopped.
Now I'm getting wonky sensations around the frayed edges of the heart area and FRM-indicative wonky sensations in the root area.
Also, I'm doing a heavy-duty "depatterning" of negative patterns using my energetic stuffies and it's working quite nicely, but I gotta take it easy with it else I'll spend the entire night suffering, haha (like, processing the stuff).
Starting to feel cautiously optimistic today.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-25-2026
Man, I gotta remember to listen to my loop at night, when I'm about to go asleep. Like, last night I felt terribad and then something interesting happened - I became internally numb to a large extent. I just laid there and suffered "painlessly", lewl. Had to sleep it off in order to regain any kind of functionality.
But it means that 6.5 G Stage 0 is attacking the most unpleasant, painful issues from the get go. Hopefully I'll get better over time. Continuing.
Despite all that, finished that translation job I got. Also, I'm back to my weigh-losing ways (finally under 100kgs again). I'm on a 1500 kcal (or therabouts) per day diet.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-25-2026
Man, this bad boy packs a significant punch at 30 minutes per loop, whoo boy. Good stuff, strong stuff.
FRMing and trauma healing going on. Unpleasant, but necessary.
BTW I had a sports-related dream, an extremely elaborate one, several days ago. I usually tend to start having sports-related dreams when listening to the USLM line of subliminal products.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-26-2026
Started feeling pretty bad, then slept a lot - had actually pretty pleasant dreams for a change about a woman - and now I'm feeling slightly better.
Stage 0 6.5 G is tackling 'em really deep wounds now apparently.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-26-2026
Okay, so for the most part, I kinda feel like crap. To put it mildly. This is exruciating.
Still, there's moments when I'm not experiencing that quite as much and I'm beginning to feel like the self-assured God of Sex and Song that I am, my mood skyrockets and everything.
So let's keep going.
I got convinced by a dancer chick to enroll in a getaway she's doing (not too far fortunately) because otherwise they'd have to cancel the entire thing (they needed one more person to get onboard). So I guess I'll be going even though but an hour ago I did not feel up to it and was even about to cancel my piano lesson for the day. Well, hopefully they'll have some sweet, kind women there, as I could really go for some of that! She does seem grateful, though.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-30-2026
Gradually begining to feel better after the depressiion bonanza this first week of Stage 0 6.5G. Returning to activity and doing stuff.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 05-31-2026
I'm gonna start an official countdown here., to make it easier to follow.
Day 1 - to be followed by 3 days off (so next loop Friday).
I'm looking for some clarification on how to run it solo. The instructions say:
But if you run it for 4 months (need it for Stages 1+), or you run it 3 times back to back for 1 month per run (don't need it), please take at least a 1 month break in between runs.
So if I wanna run it one month per, I do it like this - 1 month - at least one month break - 1 month, etc.? Or can I do say, 2 months.
RE: AAM 7.0 Stage 0 6.5 Bootcamp Bonanza Reloaded - Have at ye - 06-01-2026
Day 2
Really not feeling like going to that retreat thingy, oyyy. Currently wallowing in the misery of a broken life because the PRA in Stage 0 is working overtime. It was fcused on the trauma line in the right foot, now it's focusing on the trauma in the right leg, as far as wonky sensations are concerned.
Trying to find the motivation to go and purchase supplies for the retreat.
I do get moments when I feel better, though, but this one isn't one of them, lewl.
Anyway, trying some new thingies and they do feel like they should work really well.