A New Way of Being - OF V3 5.75G

[Tao374]

Day 71, I'm in a really bad place.  My Betaness is at an all time high.  I'm getting friend zoned constantly and I get mad temporarily then relieved that no one is testing me and I won't fail now.  I've never felt like this before.  I want to have sex but I don't feel right at all.  This sub is doing something to me.  I'm even taking testosterone boasting herbs to try to find any slight sense of masculinity right now.  The farther I get into this sub run and the farther I get away from running ASC the less positive experiences I have with Women.  I had sex once but I think it was mainly because of the alcohol.  She told me last night that she just isn't sexually attracted to me but was the first time she met me.  Then said I was never the same person sense the first day she met me.  Guess what I was running ASC then.  I've been waiting on the updated ASC for several years now.  I listened to one loop of it last night and one this morning first thing.  I don't intend to stop using OF either.  I realize this is in violation of the policy and wont expect a refund.  I have never asked for one on any sub.  I always assume if one doesn't work I did something wrong or wasn't ready (most have for me to some degree).

I feel you about the "getting friend-zoned part". I've had several cases in the past where I was either put in the friendzone or the girls would simply not feel any form of attraction towards me.
One time I had oneitis for a girl for over a year. She was occupying my thoughts, I put my life on hold and became depressed because of her. I put her on a pedestal and viewed her as above me.

And this hurts pretty badly. The reason it hurts that bad because it is literally an affront on your self-esteem and self worth as a man. To have a woman tell you that you are not good enough for her, that she doesn't feel attracted to you.

What I realized was this was caused 100% by my behavior. Once you truly get this, you reach a place of power. Once you realize that a behavior switch is the difference between friend-zoned / unlovable and women giving themselves to you, you are close to changing everything.
Up until March 2021, I've only been with 2 women, sexually. Since having this behavior switch, I've now been with 13 women and have plenty of options.

In my observations, guys / men that get with girls often simply exude more masculine energy than those that do not. That is, they are leading, decisive, and comfortable being sexual with a girl.
In contrast with guys that play it safe, that don't know how to lead, that have anxiety showing in their voice and behavior...

I can't imagine what will it be like after completing OFv3 and a run of AM6.

I can relate to everything you are saying, that bad feeling has happened to me one too many times in my life.  Also, that is an incredible turnaround and is inspirational.  11 new ones sense March is pretty impressive, I think I will be reviewing your journals.  I've have had sex with a lot of different women in my life time, I'm not really sure the exact number.  However, I still find a way to get myself caught up in situations like this were I feel isolated and not performing at my potential confidence level.  Most of the women I have hooked up with were the result of nights out drinking.  When I drink I often shift into the right mind set and it happens so naturally and it is fun. However, these same women usually find me less interesting as I loose that mind set.  I'm hoping OF will help me do this without alcohol, especially sense I'm doing sober October right now.  I really want to find that vibe/place were things just happen and be able to do it at will instead of just feeling like I get lucky.