09-24-2021, 03:23 AM
(09-22-2021, 02:50 AM)Tao374 Wrote: Day 64, more interesting things happening with my dreams. The waking up and not really being able to go back into a deep sleep but more of a daydream has had a slight twist. Recently I have started going slightly deeper during this time of the sleep cycle to the point that I’m actually dreaming but realize that I’m in a dream world. When I realize that I’m dreaming the world starts to fade away like a video game that the level dissolves into little blocks when you complete a level. However, I can make the conscious choice not to wake up but to keep dreaming. I had some pretty interesting lucid dreams two nights ago. They were almost like training for my mind and my goals. Just the concentration alone to choose not to wake up stay in my dream and control everything seemed to take a lot of mind power at the time. These daydreams that are now turning into deeper lucid dreams seem to only happen on nights that I didn’t listen to the sub. I did a loop yesterday so they didn’t happen last night. It seems to happen during off days almost like fear is regenerating or being worked on or both. This seems like it could be part of the awakening process that is described in the OF product page.
Another interesting thing that is happening seems to be in regards to my relationship with money. I’ve always had a deep desire to build and accumulate wealth. I’ve read a lot of books and watched a lot of videos on this subject. One of the first of many that inspired me was the classic “Richest Man in Babylon”. This is a very simple and basic financial book but it focuses on the key idea that you should always be saving a percentage of your income and using it to generate additional wealth. This idea led me to create a spreadsheet that I update every two weeks that shows how much I spent versus how much I make plus any changes in value for my investments accounts, home value, etc. during a pay period. The idea that each two-week period the change should always be positive with the exception of market crashes that sometimes effect my investments. It is very rare that I have a negative two-week period that is a result of my own spending. However, the current period is because I spend a lot more money than normal. This would normally make me feel a sense of great loss or frustration but it didn’t seem to affect me at all, I was like I have the money. This could be seen as a good or bad thing but it has lead me to understand that a lot of my money making decision even if they are good still center around fear or lack. This may be changing. I was laying in bed last night thinking that I feel stagnant and I deserve to be making $10,000 per week instead of $1,000 but not sure how I’m going to do this yet.
Finally, I still seem to be seeing improvements in the lowest area of my life which would be my current love and sex life. I have up and down days but generally I’m feeling much better about my self and more open with women. Fear has been a huge component of my frustration in this area. I seem to be getting a lot more attention and interest lately and it feels good.
Take a look to RTboss journal. You will find information about how improving your financial situation, and more if you usually save money.
