A Fresh Start: LTU 3.1

[Benjamin]

Sooo... I'm sure the question everybody's asking themselves is, did LTU get you laid? I may have to jump on that LTU train we gettin more pussy over here than DMSI.

Cats? How many cats do you want?



But on a more serious note..

Honestly what is with this obsession with getting laid? I saw on a phero website this guy being like "oh those subs don't work Frosted, Sarge blah blah they used subs and haven't had sex". Like wtf. It's like I need to base my self worth on this shit and do everything I can to get laid. No thanks.

That kind of stuff actually sounds like a self righteous rationalization of why you aren't getting laid more than anything.

[Frosted]

Alright, let me clear all this up.

1. I was joking when I was saying that we all need to get on LTU so we can get laid, no it was not an excuse not to run DMSI.

2. I did not get offended nor am I making self righteous excuses, sorry if something got missed in translation from the my thoughts to the internet.

[Mafioso]

Tbh I don't even know if it was LTU, I had some beers in me and had taken phenylpiracetam... what an amazing combination. Nonetheless the sub could have still altered my behaviour.
Why is it so hard to just not give a f*ck about what people think or say about you, it's like society has ingrained these belief's so deeply within you and you can't shake it off. I want to be alpha now, I think i need something outside of myself to achieve that and that is my problem, I don't want to face the discomfort and pain of rejection, I use substances to mask and subdue the discomfort which work in the short-term but not in the long-term.

[Mafioso]

Took a 5 day break. Started again one night ago trickling stream over night, had the dreams come back. One consisted of me being at a party mingling with people and girls kept coming over to me saying saying "Omg you're mafioso right?", just a bunch of interest from a random girls but nothing else happened.

[Mafioso]

Had a crazy dream last night. I only remember bits and piece because i was listening with ultra-sonic. All i know is that I died in my dream, does that have any significance? Woke up in a pretty shitty mood.

[Zane]

An old part of you has died...It could be a negative behavior,

It could also mean that your fear is being released..

[Mafioso]

An old part of you has died...It could be a negative behavior,

It could also mean that your fear is being released..

hmmmm interesting zane

[Darwinn]

It's funny because despite feeling pretty good, Death is also a recurrent theme in my dreams and also now in my life I'm being confronted by it generally. I suspect OGFS is getting to work on you and bringing up fears - if you're facing death and overcome the fear of it that's when you can become fearless. Or what Zane said works too , death in a dream can often just be a message of new beginnings and change.

[Mafioso]

At home all week alone, decided to smoke some weed to get myself to study. The weed uncovered a lot of underlying stuff. A surge of anxiety hit me and I got into an extreme introspective mode questioning my life and how I am so lazy and irresponsible despite having everything around me to succeed. Went on to get angry at myself for being so closed off and tights with everyone around when I'm my sober self.
Have a lot of catching up to do on school-work but it's very hard to get myself to do it. Woke up this morning at 9:30am after a 10hr sleep still feeling sluggish. The sub is being played strictly at night for fear that it will drain the little energy I already have. Man I could really use an Adderall right now, sometimes I wonder if I really do have ADD.

[Mafioso]

Played ultra-sonic last night, had a dream where I fucked this girl (call her Aurora) who's a friend but is very attractive. I don't remember how it actually happened but I just I just remember inserting and the pleasured look on her face. Then later in the dream I fucked another friend of mine who's not that attractive, but I wore a condom lol. On NoFap day 8.