11-21-2016, 02:18 PM
(This post was last modified: 04-12-2017, 01:18 AM by Funky Trunks.)
I decided to create a journal based on some results I've experienced over the weekend and to look at these notes to remind me of the possibilities, 'craziness' and harsh truth that I experienced. I think things are starting to happen for me now and it's ever since I had some very strange, vivid dreams last week - one with an attractive woman approaching and chasing me, the other I was possessed by a demon who kept hurting me and I actually felt the pain in the dream. I have been running DMSI since July, using each version as they have come out. 2.5 seems to be creating results for me.
So, the weekend I went out to a club for a dance event. The first time I've been properly out since DMSI. Also, the first time I've been out to a club not wearing any pheromones in a long time. As soon as I entered I had immediate eye contact interests from 2 attractive girls which put me into a very uncomfortable state. I'm going to be straight to the point with myself, it was fear. I felt anxious and scared and all these thoughts were crawling in my head - 'I'm not ready for this' 'I want these girls to go away' etc.
After a few drinks I had calmed down enough to enjoy the show and start getting my groove on. For the next 3 or 4 hours I had girls - time after time - hip bump me, surround me, stroke my back, stare longingly at me with puppy dog eyes, grind and bump their back and asses on me, move in front to grind on me whilst exposing their neck. When one girl would do something like this a whole load of other women would come next to me to get my attention and do the experiences above. I'm not sure if it was manifestation at work but, in particular, there were 2 absolutely stunning blonde girls exactly my type who made the most effort with me. They were girls from different social circles and at the same time were trying to compete for my attention. One of them got into the grinding position with me from the front whilst the other was grinding my hip. It was absolutely mental, I didn't know how to handle this situation. So I froze and did absolutely nothing. Needless to say I lost the opportunity with both my ideal physical attractive women. Afterwards I had countless opportunities with other attractive women but my state was crushed. Not just this, but some guys were barging into me muscles tensed up, other guys would just admiringly or jealously stare at me 'like how the hell is this guy getting all this attention', others gave me a high five whilst these women were around me. Honestly, practically every women in that club wanted me and I still feel shocked about it.
I felt absolutely gutted and down about not taking these chances. Really depressed about it. What an idiot I am. So much so I'm thinking about hiring a dating coach to deal with this. What do you do when girls are trying to grind on you? Had all these thoughts that if I did something it would feel weird, like touch her on the arm or something. What the hell did these girls want me to do!!?
What it has done for me though is confirm to what I want. I want to experience being with different women. I always thought that I wanted a girlfriend but now, after that, I now know and believe that I can be with lots of attractive women before settling down. For that, I am thankful to know that this is what I want.
I firmly believe I caught a glimpse into what DMSI can do and, honestly, I'm not sure if I'm ready. I'm not sure if a certain amount of healing would help, or just go and get some experience with a coach so I know that I should be ready for this. I have slept with 3 women in my life and never had a girlfriend, blown lots of chances time after time but it's this particular experience that's really caught me.
I'd like any opinions what you guys think about the dating coach idea and any suggestions about what I could have done in that club situation.
I'll be keeping this updated for sure now. I believe in DMSI.
So, the weekend I went out to a club for a dance event. The first time I've been properly out since DMSI. Also, the first time I've been out to a club not wearing any pheromones in a long time. As soon as I entered I had immediate eye contact interests from 2 attractive girls which put me into a very uncomfortable state. I'm going to be straight to the point with myself, it was fear. I felt anxious and scared and all these thoughts were crawling in my head - 'I'm not ready for this' 'I want these girls to go away' etc.
After a few drinks I had calmed down enough to enjoy the show and start getting my groove on. For the next 3 or 4 hours I had girls - time after time - hip bump me, surround me, stroke my back, stare longingly at me with puppy dog eyes, grind and bump their back and asses on me, move in front to grind on me whilst exposing their neck. When one girl would do something like this a whole load of other women would come next to me to get my attention and do the experiences above. I'm not sure if it was manifestation at work but, in particular, there were 2 absolutely stunning blonde girls exactly my type who made the most effort with me. They were girls from different social circles and at the same time were trying to compete for my attention. One of them got into the grinding position with me from the front whilst the other was grinding my hip. It was absolutely mental, I didn't know how to handle this situation. So I froze and did absolutely nothing. Needless to say I lost the opportunity with both my ideal physical attractive women. Afterwards I had countless opportunities with other attractive women but my state was crushed. Not just this, but some guys were barging into me muscles tensed up, other guys would just admiringly or jealously stare at me 'like how the hell is this guy getting all this attention', others gave me a high five whilst these women were around me. Honestly, practically every women in that club wanted me and I still feel shocked about it.
I felt absolutely gutted and down about not taking these chances. Really depressed about it. What an idiot I am. So much so I'm thinking about hiring a dating coach to deal with this. What do you do when girls are trying to grind on you? Had all these thoughts that if I did something it would feel weird, like touch her on the arm or something. What the hell did these girls want me to do!!?
What it has done for me though is confirm to what I want. I want to experience being with different women. I always thought that I wanted a girlfriend but now, after that, I now know and believe that I can be with lots of attractive women before settling down. For that, I am thankful to know that this is what I want.
I firmly believe I caught a glimpse into what DMSI can do and, honestly, I'm not sure if I'm ready. I'm not sure if a certain amount of healing would help, or just go and get some experience with a coach so I know that I should be ready for this. I have slept with 3 women in my life and never had a girlfriend, blown lots of chances time after time but it's this particular experience that's really caught me.
I'd like any opinions what you guys think about the dating coach idea and any suggestions about what I could have done in that club situation.
I'll be keeping this updated for sure now. I believe in DMSI.