07-26-2015, 10:05 AM
==32 days done==
32 days are done and I feel absolutely terrible. I've had emotional breakdowns. I've ended a friendship with a manipulative girl who literally kept me alive and also gave me a reason to live and someone to care about. I've lost motivation to do any productive work for myself and my housing situation is now in jeopardy because of it. There are a couple more specific things, but they are essentially related to those listed.
I'm positive that, when it comes to pinpointing what needs healing, EPRHA did its job. I don't feel, however, that it pointed me towards solutions or the means to find or create solutions, whether it has that capability or not.
Because I need to regain my productivity NOW and to do that I need to regain internal motivation, I'm starting ASC tonight rather than two or four months from now. I feel that rebuilding my confidence after I've been so thoroughly stripped by the effects of EPRHA is what I need to do NOW.
32 days are done and I feel absolutely terrible. I've had emotional breakdowns. I've ended a friendship with a manipulative girl who literally kept me alive and also gave me a reason to live and someone to care about. I've lost motivation to do any productive work for myself and my housing situation is now in jeopardy because of it. There are a couple more specific things, but they are essentially related to those listed.
I'm positive that, when it comes to pinpointing what needs healing, EPRHA did its job. I don't feel, however, that it pointed me towards solutions or the means to find or create solutions, whether it has that capability or not.
Because I need to regain my productivity NOW and to do that I need to regain internal motivation, I'm starting ASC tonight rather than two or four months from now. I feel that rebuilding my confidence after I've been so thoroughly stripped by the effects of EPRHA is what I need to do NOW.
A Better Alex (ISTJ): EPRHA → ASC → AM6 → …
A Sexy Alex (ESTJ-T): BIABWS+DAOS → DMSI → …
A Better Alex (ENFJ-T): AM6 → …
A Sexy Alex (ESTJ-T): BIABWS+DAOS → DMSI → …
A Better Alex (ENFJ-T): AM6 → …
