A Better Alex, stage 1: EPRHA Journal

[apollolux]

I planned on running EPRHA for 3 months but I've felt extremely unproductive during these first 16 days on it, so very likely at the end of this round of 32 days I'm switching over to the next on my list, ASC. EPRHA is occupying too much of my mental strength, showing me what I need to deal with but without giving me the tools I need to do so, which I hope ASC can be, and I need to be productive so I can finish a project I started that will allow me to not be completely homeless. It seems I've apparently pushed the generosity of my neighbor to its limit just by being there (he says "his place is not a storage room" even though my small amount of stuff is completely out of the way) and when I get back from Vermont I'll have to figure out my next step.

I didn't mention it in my original list, but I used to be a huge procrastinator, so I also understand the irony of EPRHA possibly bringing that up and acknowledge that this lack of productivity (which I've felt through the entirety of these first 16 days) may indeed be "some form of resistance" as people here like to say. Suffice it to say, if I have to choose between EPRHA and not exacerbating my housing situation superfluously, I'm going to sacrifice 2 months of potentially destructive listening in favor of sooner guaranteed constructive listening.