6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS))

[Have at ye]

Day 37, OSC + DRS v2

Despite the lack of wonky sensations, I do still get flares of anger accompanied by thoughts of certain individuals, which come and go. And become more intense while I'm listening to my loops of DRS v2. Also this happens more when I'm actively doing whatever I want to be doing - like singing practice (which I've found frustrating these past couple of days, which is an unwelcome change compared to last month) or being around people and ladies in particular.

Had some more dreams, these were definitely related to some sort of fears/worries, I think? No lady-butts in these, though, which makes me sad.

Increased the power on my EMS suit, now it's 100% cardio, 100% strength training. The strength training is kinda hardcore at these settings but I'm beginning to adjust. I'm getting more buff and people are noticing - trouble is, I've actually gained a little weight (probably muscle mass, but still) instead of losing it, heh. Gonna have to ramp up my diet a little. [EDIT: Actually, turned out I did not gain weight, I just had to, urm, "relieve" myself and the weight went back to where it was, lewl]

On another interesting note, I completely stopped consuming energy drinks. I used to chug a couple a day on previous programs - on these two, I feel no such need. Should be healthier in the long run and might be related to improved energy sourcing in the shield.

[Have at ye]

Feeling much better today, despite having had some dreams which verged on the disturbing. Singing practice went very well after a two day slump. This makes me a happy camper. Also just learned of a singing competition to which I'm going to apply - all dates check out. I can kill two birds with one stone and prepare recordings both for the comp and the auditions at the same time, my pianist buddy agreed to help me out. Set my heart on 5 pieces of repertoire, now I've got 2 months to work on them. Good!

It'll be interesting to see whether the DRS v2 + added pizzaz from OSC discourages my pianist buddy from giving me so much singing instruction (which is sometimes on point and sometimes... less so ) which is a bit of a nuisance (he's a bit of a smartass, that guy). I'll be seeing him to work on stuff next week.

Also, been finding some more translation opportunities lately. Mostly they don't pan out, but usually one out 5-6 turns into a solid customer, and I could use one or two regular customers more, given my current workload, to have more spending monies for 6G programs and such. I think I might go on a vacation course ran by designee "dancer chick with *dat ass*" from my DMSI journals in June, X4A her a bit, see how she reacts. The trip itself would be very nice as well - participated in one several years ago and it was great, I also met many hot dancer chicks there and am friends with some to this day.

[Have at ye]

Just had a thought - OSC doesn't just work on your pizzaz, awesomeness and being attractive to others - it also helps you become more confident in "your truth", what you dearly believe is true but which is being undermined by outside factors. So that's what true "self-confidence" would mean to me, being confident in your *selfdom*, something like that.

It's probably why the program digs deeper, into unpleasant territory, in order to achieve this. Even though being more "self-confident" would popularily carry the implication of simply being "more awesome", more assertive and such, in a way.

[K-Train]

Just had a thought - OSC doesn't just work on your pizzaz, awesomeness and being attractive to others - it also helps you become more confident in "your truth", what you dearly believe is true but which is being undermined by outside factors. So that's what's true "self-confidence" would mean to me, being confident in your *selfdom*, something like that.

It's probably why the program digs deeper into the unpleasant territory in order to achieve this. Even though being more “self-confident" would popularily carry the implication of simply being "more awesome", more assertive and such, in a way.

I 100% agree with this. This is why the program gels so well with DRS, too, in my opinion, because combined, they give you the room and freedom to develop into this confident individual who can stand on "your/their truth".  What I love about OSC 6G is that 10-15 years ago (hell even now) it would take 1000s of dollars $$ and hundreds of hours to get this kind of insight due to the mental grind of getting through BS and OSC is freaking FREE!!! 

Good stuff man! Look forward to seeing how your interactions go with that dude. #DRS GANG

[Have at ye]

Thanks! I'm very curious how our intercations are going to be now myself. #DRS GANG

It's true, it's amazing this program is a freebie. It really does showcase the potential and effectiveness of 6G subliminals from IML.

[kserenyi]

I would have totally ran OSFGv3 right after OSC, but unfortunately I'd rather keep the DRSv2 shielding on for at least a year continuousuly before risking going shieldless for 3 months. I'm reading your journal though.

Could this be an example of pre-resistance?  Your sub-conscience is causing you to fear not using a different program so that you don't get rid of all fear?

[Have at ye]

Now that would be stretch, I think. Not everything that happens, nor every decision made, is - or can be - resistance-related, or sub-related.

Besides, you'd probably have to be in my shoes to experience the majestic difference in my well-being pre-DRSv2 (with the grounding shield from OGSF v2, last program I ran - oh, and a week of OED) and post-DRS v2.

[Have at ye]

Day 38 of OSC + DRS v2.

So anyway, got another audition for a band next Sunday, they asked me to prepare some pretty good tunes, so that should be fun. We'll see how it pans out.

Had some very interesting - and pleasant - dreams related to OSC, definitely. It's continuing to do its work.

Also noticing that certain people appear to be discouraging me from continuing to run DRS v2 (f. in., but not just, me crazy mum. She even treid to implicate that me listening to subliminals is a sign of worsening mental health, lol. Clever.) I assume it's because it's working and it's creating a situation in which making things unpleasant for me makes things unpleasant for those who would do so. So - remember - think happy thoughts, and Have at ye is awesome!

I do get moments of anger and frustartion when practicing singing, and this one particular "money note" in this Verdi aria I've been practicing relentlessly for quite some time now - when it's not as good as I would want it to be, I start getting salty, lewl. But still, now that I'm in serious practice mode (running 5 heavy-duty arias back to back) instead of "working on technique" mode the difficulty level has increased a notch, which is par for the course. Still feeling pretty optimistic about my singing, though, especially once I run OSC after practice which calms me down (and usually makes me wanna nap which is good for muscular recovery).

[Have at ye]

Day 39 of OSC + DRS v2

I noticed one thing, and you may have noticed it as well - I'm less shy when it comes to journaling here ever since I started running DRS v2, kinda like back in the early DMSI days when I'd journal a whole lot. I'd often start feeling bad/unwell/angry/sometimes even slightly paranoid after journaling here for an extended period of time, especially while running programs with the grounding shield/NDRS (remember when I threw a tantrum and quit the forum for a while while running OED 5.11G? Yeah, could be related). This also extends to my speaking out in public and suchlike.

I went to this seminar being co-run by my lovely lady analyst, and I'll be joining it for the full monty (it's gonna be several meetings 1-2 times per month). Observed two ladies among the group whom I find sexually attractive, one of the MILFy type (definitely older than me by the looks of her, but very attractive nonetheless), we'll see how our interactions develop over time and with X4A in play (for science ).

Wonky sensations have made a return today, and again they seem to be centered around my right foot (this time with slight stinging/pains in the big toe. Last time it was more around the little toe, heh). But it's nothing I can't handle, and they come and they go.

Scored a fairly sizeable translation job today, gonna have to work on it overnight, but I certainly won't mind the money (half a 6G program's price for one night's work? Sign me up!)

[4Kingdoms]

Day 39 of OSC + DRS v2

I noticed one thing, and you may have noticed it as well - I'm less shy when it comes to journaling here ever since I started running DRS v2, kinda like back in the early DMSI days when I'd journal a whole lot. I'd often start feeling bad/unwell/angry/sometimes even slightly paranoid after journaling here for an extended period of time, especially while running programs with the grounding shield/NDRS (remember when I threw a tantrum and quit the forum for a while while running OED 5.11G? Yeah, could be related). This also extends to my speaking out in public and suchlike.

I went to this seminar being co-run by my lovely lady analyst, and I'll be joining it for the full monty (it's gonna be several meetings 1-2 times per month). Observed two ladies among the group whom I find sexually attractive, one of the MILFy type (definitely older than me by the looks of her, but very attractive nonetheless), we'll see how our interactions develop over time and with X4A in play (for science ).

Wonky sensations have made a return today, and again they seem to be centered around my right foot (this time with slight stinging/pains in the big toe. Last time it was more around the little toe, heh). But it's nothing I can't handle, and they come and they go.

Scored a fairly sizeable translation job today, gonna have to work on it overnight, but I certainly won't mind the money (half a 6G program's price for one night's work? Sign me up!)

I'm glad you explained why you felt DRS v2 helped overcome shyness by comparing it to the Grounding Shield & NDRS. My first impression was that it would be OSC that helped overcome shyness.

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I'm glad you intend to run X4A-1600 because I know you will give detailed scientific results of your experience.  I'm disappointed that there are very few X4A journals given how eager the masses were for it to be released. 

[Have at ye]

I'm glad you explained why you felt DRS v2 helped overcome shyness by comparing it to the Grounding Shield & NDRS. My first impression was that it would be OSC that helped overcome shyness.

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I'm glad you intend to run X4A-1600 because I know you will give detailed scientific results of your experience.  I'm disappointed that there are very few X4A journals given how eager the masses were for it to be released. 

Could be the interplay between OSC and DRS v2. Normally, I'm far from shy. I do sometimes feel overwhelmed by certain people, especially ones that present as faux self-confident (like many opera singers, both good and bad, do). It's often a mask for hidden aggression, which may or may not be actually unconscious agression, I think!

Thanks for your kind words. I'll probably be reporting quite regularily on it.

It's nice to have a place to talk about experiences with subliminal programs, given that they've been such a large part of my life for the past, oh, 10 years or so, ever since I discovered them.

[Shannon]

One thing I can suggest is that you may find your singing improves when you play OSC just before practice.

Subliminals are so incredibly useful that I can't imagine going without them now. Can't believe more people don't want or use them, and then I poke my head out on to the Interwebz and see the chaotic bullshit fest going on regarding subliminals and remember why most people think they don't work...

We will be advertising seriously in the not too distant future, so that will change. Eventually.

[Have at ye]

One thing I can suggest is that you may find your singing improves when you play OSC just before practice. 

I'll try that. Lately I've mostly been listening to the programs *after* singing practice.

Subliminals are so incredibly useful that I can't imagine going without them now.  Can't believe more people don't want or use them, and then I poke my head out on to the Interwebz and see the chaotic bullshit fest going on regarding subliminals and remember why most people think they don't work...

We will be advertising seriously in the not too distant future, so that will change.  Eventually. 

That's very good. F. in. my older brother tried subliminals as well, and either ran into some very bad stuff or started going bonkers due to auto-suggestion because he started feeling very, very bad in response to what he was listening to. Later, he claimed he has made himself "immune to subliminal programming", just in case (lewl, fat chance. I also wonder how'd he actually do that). I tried suggesting IML subs to him but he was skeptical due to his earlier bad experiences (and he could really, really use some heavy-duty healing, like f. in. the future 6G EPHRA - recently diagnosed as bipolar).

[Have at ye]

Day 41 of OSC + DRS v2

I was very busy with translations, did not get much sleep, and also touched upon some emotional/anger-inducing stuff during my yesterday's therapy session, and due to this - coupled with wonky sensations and having to *analyze this* (and that) - I had a slightly worse day. But, as per the usual for me, I got a couple of hours of sleep, had a rather disturbing dream which ended in my mother's literal death (which woke me up), and now I'm feeling better.

Still could use more sleep, but I've gotta finish this big job I've undertaken still (not much to go, fortunately) and then I should be fine and dandy. Did not get to practice singing these past two days, though, despite my intentions to do so as I've got stuff to work on, but oh well, in the immortal words of Frank Sinatra, "That's life!"