01-12-2017, 10:11 AM
I'm on day 3 now, and I'm feeling slightly sad. Aware I've been afraid of having close male and female relationships. One guy PM'd me here, he was honest, and I felt sad since I'd want to have friends like that. However, his action did spurn me on to write here (it was something I could do to help me). I've used forums heavily in my life before, and haven't done so heavily recently. The reason: in female relationships, which can develop in forums, I become confused since I'm more childlike than adult. I become "small" quickly. Interacting with men wakes me up mentally and emotionally. I'm modeled some maturity. (And yes, I've been reading on the AM sub, how it sparks maturity amidst many things. I'm thinking on using it in the future)
But for modeling, I'll take that.
Day 3 observations: I've had OGSF running since around 5PM yesterday. I slept with the silent track on knowing it may keep me awake or have me tired today. I'm leaning towards tired, and I'm not regretting it. I read Bliss' journal on it, and this means things are being shifted in my brain. It'll likely be like growing pains......which is GOOD. Change is GOOD. Staying where I've been, though predictable and "secure" is NOT good.
And I'll take anyone's experience using OGSF. Thanks guys.
But for modeling, I'll take that.
Day 3 observations: I've had OGSF running since around 5PM yesterday. I slept with the silent track on knowing it may keep me awake or have me tired today. I'm leaning towards tired, and I'm not regretting it. I read Bliss' journal on it, and this means things are being shifted in my brain. It'll likely be like growing pains......which is GOOD. Change is GOOD. Staying where I've been, though predictable and "secure" is NOT good.
And I'll take anyone's experience using OGSF. Thanks guys.
I want to be FREE!
