Quote:11. Refuse to justify actions that are not moving you forward, or accept that behavior from yourself.
12. Kill excuses and refuse to accept them from yourself or anyone else.
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- Be in complete control of yourself and your environment...
These above goals are executing in stage 4. I think these goals were the source of a great deal of resistance and stress in previous runs because I hadn't completely accepted some of the preceding programming from stages 1-3 about self-love and self-forgiveness. I demanded too much from myself and wasn't prepared to demand less or forgive myself if I wasn't excelling. I was completely out of balance and life was really unpleasant. Lowering the perceptory pressure this run by lowering volume and hours has allowed me to accept the preceding programming but forgive myself if I need to take a break. This scripting probably needs some safety tuning in AM7.
In other news I'm continuing to heal from my ex and let go of my attachments to the situation (most recently to my anger and resentment). It's crazy how deep she hurt me. I can say without a doubt that I would have been a very damaged person for the rest of my life if it hadn't been for the healing in AM6. Thank you Shannon.