11-03-2015, 05:44 PM
Well that's one of the other things actually. Recently i've changed my mind a little, I still identify with sigma but recently I let go of some fear and the last few times i've been out, and working security i've been much more social and actually enjoying it.
So what I realized is that a BIG part of that is fear.. because when the fear isn't in the way i'm naturally social, enjoying myself, talking to almost everybody. I hesitate to report it because i'm half afraid it will disappear.. but the last 3 times i've been out or working in the last week i've been like that and really enjoyed myself.
So i'm not so against that now and using WM to develop more of it. It was a kind of a rationalization due to fear making me identify with the sigma/lone wolf more.
I still like that, the ability to stand on my own, be strong in myself, but also be more social.
So what I realized is that a BIG part of that is fear.. because when the fear isn't in the way i'm naturally social, enjoying myself, talking to almost everybody. I hesitate to report it because i'm half afraid it will disappear.. but the last 3 times i've been out or working in the last week i've been like that and really enjoyed myself.
So i'm not so against that now and using WM to develop more of it. It was a kind of a rationalization due to fear making me identify with the sigma/lone wolf more.
I still like that, the ability to stand on my own, be strong in myself, but also be more social.
