(09-29-2016, 06:18 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: Aventus, stick with 2.4 and see it through. I had a lot of strange urges since running 2.4 also. Some of it good, some of it bad. I had some really, really bad days these past two days. So bad as a matter of fact that I resigned today from my work. My manager however would not accept it and tried talking me off a ledge.

I don't know what it is about this sub, but it's got a weird way of healing. I can say this much, the fact that I was willing to resign earned me a lot of respect hits from certain people, cuz apparently that takes balls. Or, as I tend to look at it rationally, it's stupidity.

It's a thin line between being ballsy and being stupid.

(09-29-2016, 06:42 PM)4Kingdoms Wrote: http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-7951-post-134673.html#pid134673

(09-29-2016, 06:18 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: Aventus, stick with 2.4 and see it through. I had a lot of strange urges since running 2.4 also. Some of it good, some of it bad. I had some really, really bad days these past two days. So bad as a matter of fact that I resigned today from my work. My manager however would not accept it and tried talking me off a ledge.

I don't know what it is about this sub, but it's got a weird way of healing. I can say this much, the fact that I was willing to resign earned me a lot of respect hits from certain people, cuz apparently that takes balls. Or, as I tend to look at it rationally, it's stupidity.

It's a thin line between being ballsy and being stupid.

Day 25 of v2.4 DMSI
Interesting to read this from Duke.Togo because today when I left work I told my supervisors and managers that they take me for granted and I'm not doing any more overtime!!

When I did 2.3 the other 3 people on my team became workaholics. When I started 2.4 they reverted back to their old ways.

Management thinks I'm bluffing. I'm not!! It will be interesting what happens when I return to work after two days off. Also, I plan on taking three days off next week when the US observes the Columbus Day holiday!!

Was Duke.Togo willing to resign because of the healing in 2.4 and did I stand up for myself because of the healing in 2.4?? I don't know... I do know Duke.Togo feels great about it and so do I!!

(09-30-2016, 08:58 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: I say this because, yes, I have had sex with many women over the years and many of those women were extremely attractive, at least for me. But, no one knows the underlying emotions that run through me that triggered those experiences.

Since you shared a piece of your past with your post, let me share a piece of mine. When I was still in my teens, I had a girlfriend that I really loved. It was a unique relationship, especially for its time, because of our ethnicities. She was half Chinese and Half Korean - I am half Indian and a mix of other ethnicities make up the remaining 50% of my heritage.

So, it was kind of unheard of that she and I would even date. But we did, for three years as a matter of fact. And I really, truly loved her. I would have done anything for her.

And yes, she broke my heart, but not the way it happens for many guys. She broke my heart the day she died. How she died was even more tragic. She was raped and beaten to death. I was 17 at the time when she passed.

I haven't been able to have a normal relationship with a woman since I was 17. Every time a woman has gotten close to me, I have pushed them away specifically for this reason. On the flip side of it, what happened to her had been so ingrained into my mind, that I healed myself by basically not giving a shit and looking at women as just objects that I would want to have sex with.

I know DMSI is working because I ran into someone yesterday and at one time she was just one of my objects of desire - yesterday I was able to just relate to her without all of the stigma's I normally have. And I was able to just be genuinely happy for her success - she recently landed some very big projects that would propel her forward.

So, believe me, a lot of us on these threads have dark harboring feelings where we've had bad run-ins with our experiences with women.

I think that's why when it comes to scoring a girl and just enjoying the time without a lot of the stigma's is so amazing when it happens.

All of us are looking to heal Catman. In some way, shape, or form. Healing in and of itself is a painful process.

Shannon Wrote:I'm working on MIR2 still, but work has slowed to an absolute crawl. To be certain I am not making mistakes, I can't verify more than about 3 statements a day. So today and yesterday, I got about 6 statements verified, which is only a fraction of what I can normally do in a day. But at least I can still do something. I am bored to death of the few games I actually want to play on my gaming console. All of this does have an upside, though. This forces me, out of boredom, to clean my house - which I hate doing. But I have been throwing away years of accumulated "WTF do I do with this?". Even things that have senimental value, but no other value. **** it, time to chuck it. I need the space now, since I have no office, and I need to work from home. Wouldn't need an office outside my home at all, if it weren't for my dogs, but at least when I get this room cleared out I will be able to shut the door. Not gonna be a whole lot of difference, but right now I have to work in my kitchen. There is a proper desk in my old office/bedroom, and I am making great headway clearing it off.

Still have tons of BS I have to just throw away though. Need to buy more garbage cans.

This actually feels good, it's something that has become a stagnant part of my life and as much as having no office to escape to frustrates me and lowers my productivity, this cleaning is long overdue. I am going to be filling garbage cans for a while to come, and the rest can go to Goodwill.

Time to move on and be productive again.

(10-01-2016, 01:44 AM)Alpha360 Wrote: Are you sure it's not resistance making the decision. I know it's not easy to hear that from another member but still. Last time someone quit on this sub was due to another Shannon post about dick size, and now for house work motivation.
Is switching to house work motivation really something you can't do without?
I would keep going for a few days if I were you, just to be sure. And don't report for others, do it for yourself first, you are more important I think.

(10-03-2016, 05:06 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote: Management isn't happy with my decision to stop working overtime and shocked that I refuse to work my holiday. They have dropped hints that I am more than welcome to work 6 days a week when I return from my two week vacation.

(10-09-2016, 01:44 PM)Shannon Wrote: 2.5 would have these purposes:

1. Alleviate boredom for some of you.
2. Get me maximum data with minimum effort.
3. Get me a little more time for building 3.0
4. Explore the possibility that healing in stages may work better.

Shannon Wrote:I have made a number of adjustments to DMSI 2.5. They include:

- Disabling all of the clearing modules.
- Tweaking the sniper.
- Tweaking the RIFX module.
- Tweaking the EGBX module.
- Implemented P4 (so we can add and test P4 now, and test P5 in 3.0 instead of 3.1.)

This should make the program more focused, more powerful and more effective to a noticeable degree. The sniper scripting, by the way, has been tweaked in a rather brilliant way. I'll reveal what it now does when we are done testing it.

Now I am exhausted, and I must rest before I start building. May have to wait for tomorrow. But it's ready to build, and almost all these adjustments will be ported to 3.0 to improve it also.

(10-10-2016, 12:43 AM)DarthXedonias Wrote: I'm actually really excited about the tweaks you have done to the Sniper scripting.
Will it still have inclusion for your conscious as well as subconscious wants and desires like you were planning for 3.0?

(10-10-2016, 12:54 AM)Shannon Wrote: Yes.