01-02-2019, 08:27 AM
DMSI 3.3D Day 27
Happy New Year everybody! You know the drill, let this year be better than the last!
Weirdest thing happened during my loops of ultrasonic format, I'll try to describe it down below the dashed line, now I want to respond to the posts.
Sorry @Shannon, I must have read your message poorly and skipped the "description" part. As for the read, well, it's amazing and inspirational. It's almost scary to read through my own thought processes in that description. If that book is equally thought provoking and more in depth, I will surely give it a shot. I need things now that challenge my mindset and give me new perspectives.
Well said and I agree. I should develop new, positive habits. But that's exactly why I don't wanna rush into action and I'd rather be slow and deliberate.
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Ok, so the strangest thing happened. I'm on my 5th day of NoFap (4 days 17 hours right now according to my app) and so I'm already in the phase when all of my runs would end - phase with high horniness and high susceptibility to erotic suggestion. So far it's been easier than usual, I didn't need to seriously fight any urge so far and because of this whole "New Year, New Me" shtick I'm quite motivated to stay on track.
Anyhow, I was listening to ultrasonic on my laptop before bed, I was on the 4th loop I believe, and I started feeling orgasmic. First I would just start feeling funny but the feeling intensified, it was hard to concentrate. Feeling was first concentrated on my balls, later spreading to my entire body. It's not something new, I'd get such feeling sometimes while listening to ultrasonic, but they would last for maybe 10 seconds, this one was much longer. I didn't know what to do with myself so I started walking in circles in my room, the feeling intensifying in my concentration getting worse and worse. In total it lasted for 30-40 minutes with one minute of "all-body climax" where I would get shivers down my spine. It slowly faded away after that. Also I wasn't hard even for a second during the whole thing.
The thing is I used to have unusual responses to DMSI, I believe in 2.4 or 2.5 I similarly spontaneous morphine trips when I would feel light and happy. But that was much, much more intense. Add to that lack of any conscious control over it and seemingly lack of any trigger makes it almost scary.
Happy New Year everybody! You know the drill, let this year be better than the last!
Weirdest thing happened during my loops of ultrasonic format, I'll try to describe it down below the dashed line, now I want to respond to the posts.
(12-30-2018, 01:19 PM)Shannon Wrote: I'm not necessarily trying to sell you the program, but the description has some important information. Otherwise I would have suggested you buy the program.
Sorry @Shannon, I must have read your message poorly and skipped the "description" part. As for the read, well, it's amazing and inspirational. It's almost scary to read through my own thought processes in that description. If that book is equally thought provoking and more in depth, I will surely give it a shot. I need things now that challenge my mindset and give me new perspectives.
(12-30-2018, 01:41 PM)AlphaRomeo Wrote: [...]
Hey man. The sentence that I made bold...which is why it´s a good idea to proactively to develop a positive habit to replace the old one. So think about what you can do INSTEAD of smoking, something positive, and whenever you need an urge to smoke you do the new habit instead...if you can manage to do it continuously in the beginning then the urge to smoke becomes an automatic trigger to do the new behaviour instead...until you do the new stuff without even thinking about smoking. The biggest challenge is of course to be able to do it in the first place...but just thought to give you one tool/method/way of thinking that might be helpful. You have to fill not only the habit of smoking with something else, but also think about what will you do with that TIME that now frees up when you are not smoking anymore, so that you have already thought about what to do for those few minutes that smoking would take...so that you don´t go like "Need smoke...oh wait...f**k, now what!?" I hope this is helpful.
Well said and I agree. I should develop new, positive habits. But that's exactly why I don't wanna rush into action and I'd rather be slow and deliberate.
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Ok, so the strangest thing happened. I'm on my 5th day of NoFap (4 days 17 hours right now according to my app) and so I'm already in the phase when all of my runs would end - phase with high horniness and high susceptibility to erotic suggestion. So far it's been easier than usual, I didn't need to seriously fight any urge so far and because of this whole "New Year, New Me" shtick I'm quite motivated to stay on track.
Anyhow, I was listening to ultrasonic on my laptop before bed, I was on the 4th loop I believe, and I started feeling orgasmic. First I would just start feeling funny but the feeling intensified, it was hard to concentrate. Feeling was first concentrated on my balls, later spreading to my entire body. It's not something new, I'd get such feeling sometimes while listening to ultrasonic, but they would last for maybe 10 seconds, this one was much longer. I didn't know what to do with myself so I started walking in circles in my room, the feeling intensifying in my concentration getting worse and worse. In total it lasted for 30-40 minutes with one minute of "all-body climax" where I would get shivers down my spine. It slowly faded away after that. Also I wasn't hard even for a second during the whole thing.
The thing is I used to have unusual responses to DMSI, I believe in 2.4 or 2.5 I similarly spontaneous morphine trips when I would feel light and happy. But that was much, much more intense. Add to that lack of any conscious control over it and seemingly lack of any trigger makes it almost scary.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4