05-30-2017, 05:58 AM
Day 89 - 5 loops
Yesterday my ex invited me to come to where she lives (2 hours drive from the city). I came out quite naturally, I said I'd like to come some day and she said why not this week. We agreed I'd come on Wednesday but today she wrote she's sorry and that she isn't ready for meeting me yet.
Whatever DMSI is doing to her right now I feel sorry for her. She has enough emotional baggage as it is and I feel right now like I only give her more shit to carry on her shoulders. I have no idea what to do to be honest, only thing I can come up with is simply to wait and see where all of this will lead. Putting sex and relationships aside I hope I will be able to help her, simply as a friend.
Why can't I attract some nice, pretty, emotionally stable women? Instead I get smoking hot, sure, but ready to explode at all times ex. And please, don't tell me limiting beliefs. Limiting beliefs didn't bring my ex back into my life.
Yesterday my ex invited me to come to where she lives (2 hours drive from the city). I came out quite naturally, I said I'd like to come some day and she said why not this week. We agreed I'd come on Wednesday but today she wrote she's sorry and that she isn't ready for meeting me yet.
Whatever DMSI is doing to her right now I feel sorry for her. She has enough emotional baggage as it is and I feel right now like I only give her more shit to carry on her shoulders. I have no idea what to do to be honest, only thing I can come up with is simply to wait and see where all of this will lead. Putting sex and relationships aside I hope I will be able to help her, simply as a friend.
Why can't I attract some nice, pretty, emotionally stable women? Instead I get smoking hot, sure, but ready to explode at all times ex. And please, don't tell me limiting beliefs. Limiting beliefs didn't bring my ex back into my life.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4