05-14-2017, 01:59 PM
Day 73
Lots of resistance recently. I start to strongly realize that all my previous posts about my DMSI girls prove to be resistance incarnate. The thing is each of those girls shows some kind of my deep belief that hinders DMSI's execution. I remember I was talking about paradigm shift quite some time ago and my actions for the past couple of weeks prove I'm not ready to undergo it.
I think there will come a time (and it might come soon) when I'll have to finally choose between staying in my old paradigm and rendering DMSI useless or do unthinkable and change everything I believe when it comes to relationships. Because as of right now I get very little out of DMSI and while healing is quite good I need more. Using DMSI as some kind of springboard for finding a girlfriend and calling it a day doesn't really make much sense, right?
Oh, and I got cucked by my snipee. Again. I cannot help but wonder what is going on with this one. Is she not my long distance snipee (which she well might not be), Universe thinks it's not time for us (you know, perfect circumstances and all that) or LDS script is not executing that well (due to resistance or whatever)? Any thoughts?
Lots of resistance recently. I start to strongly realize that all my previous posts about my DMSI girls prove to be resistance incarnate. The thing is each of those girls shows some kind of my deep belief that hinders DMSI's execution. I remember I was talking about paradigm shift quite some time ago and my actions for the past couple of weeks prove I'm not ready to undergo it.
I think there will come a time (and it might come soon) when I'll have to finally choose between staying in my old paradigm and rendering DMSI useless or do unthinkable and change everything I believe when it comes to relationships. Because as of right now I get very little out of DMSI and while healing is quite good I need more. Using DMSI as some kind of springboard for finding a girlfriend and calling it a day doesn't really make much sense, right?
Oh, and I got cucked by my snipee. Again. I cannot help but wonder what is going on with this one. Is she not my long distance snipee (which she well might not be), Universe thinks it's not time for us (you know, perfect circumstances and all that) or LDS script is not executing that well (due to resistance or whatever)? Any thoughts?
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4