04-09-2017, 12:54 PM
(04-09-2017, 11:06 AM)Shannon Wrote: Paradigm conflict brings high contrast and change. DMSI is changing your core programming.
My thoughts exactly. I am anticipating this kind of paradigm shift for some time already. I'm just never able or willing to pass through it. If all that crazy stuff that is going on with that girl is some kind of manifestation of necessity of said shift I'm glad because one learns best through experience. Her being proven to be just another "not like that" girl will be quite a game changer in my inner dialogue.
Day 38 update
Emotions calmed down significantly. It's a good thing as it means it was only temporary and my emotions came back to this meta-stable equilibrium. Anger is still quite present but sadness is replaced by this feeling of possibility I was describing before. It means I'm back on track for whatever future might bring.
Still the whole day proved to be quite unproductive but certainly not wasted. I needed some time and I took it, learning quite a lot about myself and other things.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4