11-27-2016, 11:25 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-27-2016, 11:32 AM by Mystic Pymp.)
Pause in DMSI exposure is not giving me any favors. I became a ball of nerves. While DMSI was helping me to deal with them now without that help and still exposed to all my emotional problems I fell terrible. Yesterday I was talking with my mother about my future, how in half a year I will get my Masters degree and I'll have to probably go somewhere out into the unknown world and how I'm scared of it and I started crying. It was the first time I was crying during a conversation since a long time, I cannot even remember when exactly. Also any and all attempts to make something out of my relationship with my ex goes to the gutter and while I still hold my position that we should be trying I don't think there is much sense in it.
In moments like these I have no idea what to do, I want to just lay under the sheets and protects myself from all this crap. I cannot though. All I can do is cry in silence and keep going trying all my best not to hit emotional rock bottom.
EDIT: Now I remember when I felt like this the last time and it was really not that long ago! 6 weeks ago in fact. It's funny how quickly I forgot about that cap. Thankfully now I remember how I dealt with that back then and it gives me s**ttons of hope. Funny how sometimes writing your thoughts down can help.
In moments like these I have no idea what to do, I want to just lay under the sheets and protects myself from all this crap. I cannot though. All I can do is cry in silence and keep going trying all my best not to hit emotional rock bottom.
EDIT: Now I remember when I felt like this the last time and it was really not that long ago! 6 weeks ago in fact. It's funny how quickly I forgot about that cap. Thankfully now I remember how I dealt with that back then and it gives me s**ttons of hope. Funny how sometimes writing your thoughts down can help.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4