09-03-2015, 02:29 PM
I have to say that doing EPRHA has had me also learn a bit more about myself.
I always wondered if I was an "extrovert" or "introvert". But I stopped trying to label myself. I realized that when I'm the center of attention amongst a group of people, I feel really good. But if I'm amongst a group and I am unnoticed, I feel bad and want to be around my friends (who make me feel like I'm the center of attention). I'm totally functional by myself, but I'm always at my best with friends or those who give me their attention. This might be one reason why I use to get angry when people don't text me back. It doesn't bother me as much now, but it does still bother me.
I'm still unsure what the "pinnacle of perfection" is supposed to be with this sub. Like, someone who really took all 100% of the benefits offered in the sub, what would the result be?
Anyway, I do feel that I have changed. I wouldn't say that I feel "happy" most of the time, but I don't feel depressed and driven by rage like I did at the start of the sub (when I had resistance).
Now I just feel sort "meh". I feel like I understand my weaknesses and I just accept them, but I still feel like this is just the start of change. I thought of EPRHA like breaking the chains that would hold me back. Just the fact that the chains are broken, I feel a difference somehow. But I didn't really see myself go anywhere (external results). As of right now, Oct. 10th is the last day of my 6 month run (If I miss a day, I add one). Starting today, I'm upping my exposure so I'll be getting 9+ hours of sub exposure a day. When the 6 month period is up, I'll be ready to start moving forward.
I always wondered if I was an "extrovert" or "introvert". But I stopped trying to label myself. I realized that when I'm the center of attention amongst a group of people, I feel really good. But if I'm amongst a group and I am unnoticed, I feel bad and want to be around my friends (who make me feel like I'm the center of attention). I'm totally functional by myself, but I'm always at my best with friends or those who give me their attention. This might be one reason why I use to get angry when people don't text me back. It doesn't bother me as much now, but it does still bother me.
I'm still unsure what the "pinnacle of perfection" is supposed to be with this sub. Like, someone who really took all 100% of the benefits offered in the sub, what would the result be?
Anyway, I do feel that I have changed. I wouldn't say that I feel "happy" most of the time, but I don't feel depressed and driven by rage like I did at the start of the sub (when I had resistance).
Now I just feel sort "meh". I feel like I understand my weaknesses and I just accept them, but I still feel like this is just the start of change. I thought of EPRHA like breaking the chains that would hold me back. Just the fact that the chains are broken, I feel a difference somehow. But I didn't really see myself go anywhere (external results). As of right now, Oct. 10th is the last day of my 6 month run (If I miss a day, I add one). Starting today, I'm upping my exposure so I'll be getting 9+ hours of sub exposure a day. When the 6 month period is up, I'll be ready to start moving forward.