Stage 5, Day 13,
Total Plays: 190
I think the sub is moving an iceberg; most of the stuff being cleared would be behind the scenes and rather invisible to me. The resistance I felt today was rather strange, because very little was felt, but I know that there's much more than I could see/feel.
The general feeling I was feeling at work was almost too neutral, with a small dash of frustration at the way things are, with some detached indifference on the side. Contradictory, I realize, but especially in a studying phase of the semester, I feel like I'm in this weird limbo where every day is similar to the other, where nothing changes, and I'm sitting back and letting the 'nothing' happen.
I've let go on the idea that I have to get with hot girls; after all, they don't owe me anything. I'm the one going for the rather attractive ones, and they're probably screening me out for 1-2 qualities that I'm unaware of.Though it was a bit unsettling when some less-than-hot-stuff (in simple terms, a '7') cuts contact right after being the one initiating.
I don't know what I'm doing wrong, so for right now, I've decided to make peace with that, and let things run their course for a couple of days, or perhaps until my midterm on Tuesday night, then I'll give hooking up a bit more thought.
BTW, I studied for probably 3 hours today, and practiced guitar another 1-2. My lead guitar playing is picking up (lol, get it?), and my speed and fluidity has improved. I need to put equal emphasis on vocals, as I want to be an even keeled musician. At my best, I would have been able to start flirting with some Matt Andersen covers, and eventually succeeding. What's maintaining my voice now is that I've been playing Dio's "Holy Diver" CD on loop for the past week, and I often sing some of the lines.
Total Plays: 190
I think the sub is moving an iceberg; most of the stuff being cleared would be behind the scenes and rather invisible to me. The resistance I felt today was rather strange, because very little was felt, but I know that there's much more than I could see/feel.
The general feeling I was feeling at work was almost too neutral, with a small dash of frustration at the way things are, with some detached indifference on the side. Contradictory, I realize, but especially in a studying phase of the semester, I feel like I'm in this weird limbo where every day is similar to the other, where nothing changes, and I'm sitting back and letting the 'nothing' happen.
I've let go on the idea that I have to get with hot girls; after all, they don't owe me anything. I'm the one going for the rather attractive ones, and they're probably screening me out for 1-2 qualities that I'm unaware of.Though it was a bit unsettling when some less-than-hot-stuff (in simple terms, a '7') cuts contact right after being the one initiating.
I don't know what I'm doing wrong, so for right now, I've decided to make peace with that, and let things run their course for a couple of days, or perhaps until my midterm on Tuesday night, then I'll give hooking up a bit more thought.
BTW, I studied for probably 3 hours today, and practiced guitar another 1-2. My lead guitar playing is picking up (lol, get it?), and my speed and fluidity has improved. I need to put equal emphasis on vocals, as I want to be an even keeled musician. At my best, I would have been able to start flirting with some Matt Andersen covers, and eventually succeeding. What's maintaining my voice now is that I've been playing Dio's "Holy Diver" CD on loop for the past week, and I often sing some of the lines.
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