10-26-2014, 07:28 PM
Stage 5, Day 1
Okay, there's certainly something to this sexual presence thing in general; the more I practice this, the stronger it gets. I'm getting this feeling at work, at home, more so out on the street. What I need to do is to figure out how to generate it on the fly when I'm going up to a woman I'm attracted to; it doesn't come up right away as I normally have to build momentum behind this state. But there's really (in)tangible daily improvement.
I approached two women today; I didn't feel much enthusiasm on their side, possibly due to the lack of polarity on my behalf (see above), or that I've cut out a lot of the logical sort of questioning to move things along smoothly ("where are you from?", "what do you do?"). I'll only use it if it sits there too long. So I had two 2-minute interactions, they went alright, but more importantly is that these give me feedback on how to tighten myself up.
I've hit a new gold mine when it comes to intense masculinity, with the very first post I read of this guy about how to choke (appropriately) during sex:
http://www.dangerandplay.com/2011/12/26/...e-a-woman/
http://www.dangerandplay.com/2011/12/24/...ification/
http://www.dangerandplay.com/2014/02/11/...ownership/
Of course, this is all about consenting adults enjoying themselves, and it should also be added in incrementally. This does, of course, imply the aspect of displaying dominance in the sexual arena.
I feel much different now in terms of the sensations of emotions I can feel than I did a week ago.
On a related note, holy shit am I unfocused and bad at being productive. Come to think of it, I should get some rest right away, as I probably have 9 hours combined over the weekend.
Okay, there's certainly something to this sexual presence thing in general; the more I practice this, the stronger it gets. I'm getting this feeling at work, at home, more so out on the street. What I need to do is to figure out how to generate it on the fly when I'm going up to a woman I'm attracted to; it doesn't come up right away as I normally have to build momentum behind this state. But there's really (in)tangible daily improvement.
I approached two women today; I didn't feel much enthusiasm on their side, possibly due to the lack of polarity on my behalf (see above), or that I've cut out a lot of the logical sort of questioning to move things along smoothly ("where are you from?", "what do you do?"). I'll only use it if it sits there too long. So I had two 2-minute interactions, they went alright, but more importantly is that these give me feedback on how to tighten myself up.
I've hit a new gold mine when it comes to intense masculinity, with the very first post I read of this guy about how to choke (appropriately) during sex:
http://www.dangerandplay.com/2011/12/26/...e-a-woman/
http://www.dangerandplay.com/2011/12/24/...ification/
http://www.dangerandplay.com/2014/02/11/...ownership/
Of course, this is all about consenting adults enjoying themselves, and it should also be added in incrementally. This does, of course, imply the aspect of displaying dominance in the sexual arena.
I feel much different now in terms of the sensations of emotions I can feel than I did a week ago.
On a related note, holy shit am I unfocused and bad at being productive. Come to think of it, I should get some rest right away, as I probably have 9 hours combined over the weekend.
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