Stage 4, Day 30,
I must have released a ton, as my dreams really showed it; I had a dream where I straight up killed a guy out of self defense in a machete fight inside an underground bunker or barracks. One solid shot to the throat on my behalf, and then I'm carrying this guy - still semi-living - above ground. I had another variety of dreams that I've forgotten.
I took advantage of my meditation/BrainEv session to do even more releasing related to feeling sexy. I removed blocks related to:
- Feeling positively related to women and femininity;
- Loving all women;
- Feeling arousal or even getting hard for a woman or interest in the moment;
- Feeling sexual energy or arousal in public (not perverse stuff, but in regards to women you like);
- Approaching women while in this state of arousal;
- removing the need to remove these feelings of arousal by masturbating;
Goodness, I didn't know that I would make that much progress as quickly as I did. In my class, I was able to get this feeling of sexy going on through large portions of the class. It also made me more comfortable talking to the women in my class (I'm rather familiar with them, as they're in my program) while holding on to a large portion of the feeling.
I still think it's 20% of what it could be, so I will keep releasing these feelings until I'm satisfied and/or I find additional modalities to kick it up even further.
I must have released a ton, as my dreams really showed it; I had a dream where I straight up killed a guy out of self defense in a machete fight inside an underground bunker or barracks. One solid shot to the throat on my behalf, and then I'm carrying this guy - still semi-living - above ground. I had another variety of dreams that I've forgotten.
I took advantage of my meditation/BrainEv session to do even more releasing related to feeling sexy. I removed blocks related to:
- Feeling positively related to women and femininity;
- Loving all women;
- Feeling arousal or even getting hard for a woman or interest in the moment;
- Feeling sexual energy or arousal in public (not perverse stuff, but in regards to women you like);
- Approaching women while in this state of arousal;
- removing the need to remove these feelings of arousal by masturbating;
Goodness, I didn't know that I would make that much progress as quickly as I did. In my class, I was able to get this feeling of sexy going on through large portions of the class. It also made me more comfortable talking to the women in my class (I'm rather familiar with them, as they're in my program) while holding on to a large portion of the feeling.
I still think it's 20% of what it could be, so I will keep releasing these feelings until I'm satisfied and/or I find additional modalities to kick it up even further.
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