09-29-2014, 09:51 PM
Stage 4. Day 7
My resistance is basically a throw-back to high school; I'm this awkward, goofy guy who has no sense of presence or masculinity. I know that once this passes.. look out. Matter of fact, a large chunk of it did in the evening. I kept noticing how smooth I looked in the mirror. Kick ass body language.
Beyond that, my resistance had been a form of: "oh noes! no wiminz lik meeeeeee! I iz invizibul nd no 1 wll lvz me!!! I'm all alone" It kicked on when I keep seeing the vietnamese woman being hot and cold. I suppose I was more into her than I anticipated. Should just let it go.
This resistance also comes in the inability to focus; I finished a work assignment that could have taken 40 minutes, and it takes me 2-3x as long. Doing some readings was almost impossible; it doesn't seem like anything had soaked in.
My resistance is basically a throw-back to high school; I'm this awkward, goofy guy who has no sense of presence or masculinity. I know that once this passes.. look out. Matter of fact, a large chunk of it did in the evening. I kept noticing how smooth I looked in the mirror. Kick ass body language.
Beyond that, my resistance had been a form of: "oh noes! no wiminz lik meeeeeee! I iz invizibul nd no 1 wll lvz me!!! I'm all alone" It kicked on when I keep seeing the vietnamese woman being hot and cold. I suppose I was more into her than I anticipated. Should just let it go.
This resistance also comes in the inability to focus; I finished a work assignment that could have taken 40 minutes, and it takes me 2-3x as long. Doing some readings was almost impossible; it doesn't seem like anything had soaked in.
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