09-13-2010, 07:01 AM
This thing can really get to you. That has especially been true over the last few days. There has been a lot of negativity coming up that I must have had hidden deep within me. From what I understand, it seems like this first level is more about stripping away all of the negativity and beta qualities, at least that's what it feels like. I feel different. A lot of negativity has been coming up, but also I feel more clear than ever. I feel more able to act on things that I want to do right away and set out a definite course of action instead of in the past when my mind would be strewn about in a thousand different places. It is a good feeling, now when this negativity goes away and I am back to being more of my positive self, things will really kick in to high gear.
As far as women are concerned, I have always been the guy that women sleep with instead of being their boyfriend, but I'm starting to get rid of that NEED to have a bunch of women in my life because that is a validation seeking behavior and I have been focusing more on having one girl in my life that I actually have an amazing connection with. This is becoming pretty easy too, because girls have been presenting themselves to me, all the time. This indifference thing is very powerful indeed. It is nothing anymore for me to disqualify even the most beautiful of girls if they have some quality about them that I find distasteful. My focus lately has been less on party girls and more on girls that have an amazing feminine energy that has a great polarity to what I am becoming with the alpha set. Another thing is that I still dont pursue women, but I now allow genuine connection to happen and things happen on their own accord and the connection either happens or it doesn't. How did we ever complicated something so simple? Having this kind of power of decision feels pretty good.
As far as women are concerned, I have always been the guy that women sleep with instead of being their boyfriend, but I'm starting to get rid of that NEED to have a bunch of women in my life because that is a validation seeking behavior and I have been focusing more on having one girl in my life that I actually have an amazing connection with. This is becoming pretty easy too, because girls have been presenting themselves to me, all the time. This indifference thing is very powerful indeed. It is nothing anymore for me to disqualify even the most beautiful of girls if they have some quality about them that I find distasteful. My focus lately has been less on party girls and more on girls that have an amazing feminine energy that has a great polarity to what I am becoming with the alpha set. Another thing is that I still dont pursue women, but I now allow genuine connection to happen and things happen on their own accord and the connection either happens or it doesn't. How did we ever complicated something so simple? Having this kind of power of decision feels pretty good.
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