(07-08-2012, 07:43 PM)Cortez Wrote: I'm about 75% done with stage 5 of alpha now and recently I have been really calm and rock solid. I've been very focused lately on everything I set my mind to and at work in particular, my boss keeps trying to force me in to a promotion and put me over a bunch of people as one of the bosses. I finally decided that I'd give it a shot because it seems easier than what I'm doing now and I'd make way more money. Everyone seems to be looking to me for guidance these days. It's very interesting.
I have had almost no desire to socialize lately. I've been more caught up in reading books most of the time, but I did go to my friends birthday party last night at his house and it was very amusing how things turned out. At some point in the night, this "Bi, but mostly lesbian." girl kept telling me I looked like Sam from Supernatural and then proceeded to tell me about all this erotic fan fic she wrote about him, lmao. Then when she got drunk I was sitting in a chair with my legs spread out and she comes and sits in between them. She realized what she was doing, I guess because she apologized saying "Oh, I'm sorry, I am in your personal space." and of course I had to say "I don't have any personal space." She said "Good!" and started getting all feely, brushing my dick with her hand through my pants and then just outright laying her hand on it. I didn't really care nor did I want her, but I did find it amusing.
All the while these other two girls I know from work who have this strange fixation on me, were sitting there asking me a bunch of questions and when they saw how nonreactive I was being to this girl rubbing all over me, one of them was like "God, Adam is just entirely indifferent to everything!" Which is pretty much true. Then they kept saying things like "If nudity were allowed at this party, Adam would totally be naked right now." and I said "I'd be naked before I even started drinking."
Eventually some guy comes over and wants to Indian leg wrestle me(I won) and then his sister, who I work with comes outside, after, I assume, many shots of Jager, because she's now trashed and starts getting really ridiculous. She has a huge crush on me and so she starts getting all self conscious, thinking I'm now going to think less of her now that I have seen her drunk and keeps trying to make me promise that I won't think less of her...God the insecurities of women in this society just wear me the F out. I'm almost entirely indifferent to all of them these days because I just do not want them, plain and simple. There's really not much more to it than that.
When I was leaving, the lesbian girl let it be known that I shouldn't go because and I quote "I haven't got to molest you yet.' Lmao...So ridiculous.
Wait until you hit stage 6, the mindset and just plain feeling is AWESOME.
Funny you mention organic farms, I was talking to this cutie in my qi gong class and it turns out she is going to go to new zealand for a couple of months and through some organization she is going to work on organic farms, from farm to farm.
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And Game of Thrones is an awesome show, too bad that dude died in the first season, he was pretty bad ass.
"Personality is the extent to which the individual has learned to convert his energies into habits or actions which successfully influence other people.
-Henry C. Link
"I see you have the ring Lonestar, and your Schwartz is as big as mine."
- Dark Helmet
-Henry C. Link
"I see you have the ring Lonestar, and your Schwartz is as big as mine."
- Dark Helmet