I've been in a sort of melancholy lately. I think perhaps this sub is bringing up a lot of stuff that has been hidden way down in me and it feels like it's coming out in a wave. I don't normally feel this way. It kind of feels like my eye's are being fully opened as to how sick and riddled with insecurities most peoples lives are. Also, I've been noticing on a much deeper level more and more how much religion screws people up psychologically. My family has been deeply messed up by it. It breaks my heart how messed up my family is. I think when I release all of this hidden contempt I'll feel much better.
I went on a date yesterday. I was a little off my game, but that doesn't really matter because I'm tired of game and I don't really care to use it anymore. I find myself letting the attraction happen or not at all. I could really care less either way. The girl I went out with was a nice enough girl, but she had that masculine edge to her personality that a lot of American women have and she didn't really laugh a lot. That's a shame too because she has a really pretty smile. She asked a lot of questions and I felt that it was like a job interview(Which is a quick way to get me uninterested). I told her at one point "You know, you ask a lot of questions." I just have to call it like it is. It's a stark contrast to the girl I was seeing recently. Me and that girl were immensely attracted to each other and asked very little questions about one each others lives. I still don't even know how old she is and I saw her for a while. We were just irresistibly drawn to each other. Anyway, back to the new girl...I don't think either of us were digging the date. She's a Leo and I am too and from what I know about Leo's dating Leo's, they are either irresistibly drawn to one another or just butt heads continuously. I'm thinking it would constantly be the latter, but she's a nice girl anyway. Her and I just aren't in the stars, lol.
I went on a date yesterday. I was a little off my game, but that doesn't really matter because I'm tired of game and I don't really care to use it anymore. I find myself letting the attraction happen or not at all. I could really care less either way. The girl I went out with was a nice enough girl, but she had that masculine edge to her personality that a lot of American women have and she didn't really laugh a lot. That's a shame too because she has a really pretty smile. She asked a lot of questions and I felt that it was like a job interview(Which is a quick way to get me uninterested). I told her at one point "You know, you ask a lot of questions." I just have to call it like it is. It's a stark contrast to the girl I was seeing recently. Me and that girl were immensely attracted to each other and asked very little questions about one each others lives. I still don't even know how old she is and I saw her for a while. We were just irresistibly drawn to each other. Anyway, back to the new girl...I don't think either of us were digging the date. She's a Leo and I am too and from what I know about Leo's dating Leo's, they are either irresistibly drawn to one another or just butt heads continuously. I'm thinking it would constantly be the latter, but she's a nice girl anyway. Her and I just aren't in the stars, lol.
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