07-06-2013, 03:55 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-06-2013, 04:20 AM by AlphaScorpio.)
stage 3 day 9 God this is nasty, I'm feeling like I did before I started stage 1 I'm irritable, self conscious, unaccepting of myself and paralyzed by analyzing everything feel really neurotic. have I resisted all these changes? am I just going round in circles? feel insane with frustration and anger. this is the first time I've felt depressed in a long time, is it the fact I've. moved back home or is it the sub? or is it simply that I'm going around in circles trying to find a way out....
My dream last night was odd, I was standing on a boat when suddenly everywhere got stormy and lightning was crashing around the ocean, the ship started to sink into the ocean so me and these other people had to swim through the inside of the ship whilst it was flooded and underwater to get out before we drowned, It felt like I was swimming away from something but I don't know what it was. We came to a small corridor inside the drowning ship and the other people swam through it quickly but I held back halfway through from some unknown fear, I think there was a shark behind the corner but I never saw it, it's just what I felt was there in the dream. But once I got out the otherside of the corridor the room turned into a play area with no water, it was completely dry and nothing was flooded there were little toddlers and children playing and crawling through little playtunnels and stuff I had no fear then and nothing to worry about. All this happened inside a ship that was sinking into the sea and being flooded with murky sea water. Very odd dream. I have had a few boat dreams since starting AM also many dreams involving water, perhaps reoccurring dreams?
My dream last night was odd, I was standing on a boat when suddenly everywhere got stormy and lightning was crashing around the ocean, the ship started to sink into the ocean so me and these other people had to swim through the inside of the ship whilst it was flooded and underwater to get out before we drowned, It felt like I was swimming away from something but I don't know what it was. We came to a small corridor inside the drowning ship and the other people swam through it quickly but I held back halfway through from some unknown fear, I think there was a shark behind the corner but I never saw it, it's just what I felt was there in the dream. But once I got out the otherside of the corridor the room turned into a play area with no water, it was completely dry and nothing was flooded there were little toddlers and children playing and crawling through little playtunnels and stuff I had no fear then and nothing to worry about. All this happened inside a ship that was sinking into the sea and being flooded with murky sea water. Very odd dream. I have had a few boat dreams since starting AM also many dreams involving water, perhaps reoccurring dreams?