Obliteration (OGSF v2)

[NOMAD]

Leads me to wonder if E6 and the broader range of healing and increased power would help. But is that also resistance? I don't know.

My personal thought on this is that it's a highly individual issue. It's something that we have to determine for ourselves and unfortunately, there's rarely a black and white, clean cut answer. For the past couple of years I've been following a basic code when it comes to subs. That code is this:

- Avoid subs that focus on reducing/removing the negative (i.e. OF, E-series, etc.). This helps me to avoid getting caught up in never-ending loops that would allow me to justify any lack of progress.
- Use subs that focus on improvement by increasing the positive (UMS, Maverick, US, AM, etc). This tends to be a roller coaster ride, but the overall self-improvement trend is positive and has clear, measurable milestones when looking back at outward results.
- Pick a sub that I'm willing to run for 12+ months and stick to that plan. For me, it generally takes 6+ months of use before I begin to see the outward results I just mentioned.

I'm not suggesting that you should follow my code. But setting a framework for yourself might be helpful. Even an imperfect framework can help to determine what works well and what doesn't. That can help you to correct course as needed.

Also since disrupting OGSF again i've had almost no desire to go out and socialize, don't really want to do anything much at all, thinking about going somewhere is making me uncomfortable and like I wouldn't enjoy it, or feeling that i'd just sit there quietly like a blob or something. This is frustrating because before I disrupted it I was starting to do more again and goto some things I usually wouldn't and enjoying it.

It could be that OGSF is guiding you to sit in your cave, spend time with yourself, and overcome those issues. There's nothing wrong with pulling away from social groups & functions, then emerging when you're ready. You might consider giving the sub a certain amount of time (in months) to do its thing, then re-evaluate what you want to do next. At that point, you should have a good idea of how well you're executing the sub versus how much misery you're dealing with. Realistically, if you've used a sub for a year and you've experienced pure hell for months on end, it's probably time to move on.