11-13-2023, 12:03 PM
(11-13-2023, 01:08 AM)Benjamin Wrote:Quote:If you do decide to quit OGSF I would wait a bit until you’re in a different headspace so that you make sure it’s what you really want and not just due to whatever state you’re in right now. Similar to how you should never make a major life decision when you’re tired.
Definately a good point. I feel much better today after upping the loops last night. Enough that it's not as difficult to continue, but still have the same thoughts about changing to something else. I've said to myself "one more week and i'll decide" which is easier than "ok 4 more months".
Quote:Keep in mind OGSF can feel like a thankless subliminal. You’re literally subjecting yourself to unpleasantness to heal and clear the stuff you’ve been running from your whole life. Doesn’t mean you shouldn’t reevaluate and run something else if you don’t want to take this approach right now, or have other priorities you’d rather address.
Yeah that's the thing. Am I using it to hide from what I really need to do under the guise of "I need more healing?" (that's more a rhetorical question to myself).
It's interesting OF v3 I enjoyed, UH I enjoyed more and felt like stuff was happening. OGSF v1 (3 months usage) and v2 (almost 2 months) I haven't enjoyed much at all. I only really have small things to show for it.
What's funny is when I stopped UH it was because I got a strong feeling of "Ok it's time to move forward now", strong enough that I followed it. And I used other things for maybe a few months and it ended up with nothing much happening.
Quote:In regards to women, I think it’s okay to pursue them. At the end of the day who cares if it’s a distraction for you? You’re pursuing other things than women, so why do you feel bad about it? As long as it’s not obsessive or suffocating your other priorities. In the long term you want to overcome the unhealthy part of your desires, but right now they’re mixed up in your healthy desires.
The main issue is it can end up being obsessive for me and was a big coping mechanism in the past and keeps coming up, not as strongly though. But I realize it's happening then redirect my focus and each time end up back there. It seems I can't simply just get over the fear and talk to girls when I see them then forget about it and do other things. If I could do that it wouldn't be an issue.
Quote:Hey Ben, my apologies - somehow didn't see your story when visiting the forums. I have no idea what that must be like, but it sounds like you have come a long way since the darkest hour.
Thanks, yeah definately have, but it's still a struggle at times.
Funnily enough OGSF I had similar doubts. I wanted to know if I was just on a treadmill of endless healing and clearing to avoid what I wanted to do (make money). Part of the reason I’m on UMS2 now is because I wanted to find out if that was the case. The reason I never started UMS2 at first, was because I was scared that if I never finished healing/clearing on the most powerful healing sub until I was done, that I wouldn’t get good results with other subliminals and might waste my time.
I’ve found that running UMS2 so far has not been a waste of time. I’m still healing and clearing and it’s a lot easier to bear the difficult stuff because it’s all for a purpose. I’ll also get rewards for healing and clearing, like more positivity, instead of just more healing/clearing (although there is that too). I feel like that’s an advantage OGSF doesn’t have, since you’re kinda just doing it to do it.
But on the other hand, OGSF clearing and healing actually was pretty huge for me. It’s so subtle that it’s hard to notice, especially when you’re running it. I still have a hard time noticing. It’s almost like in life. After awhile you look back and are like “oh yeah, I’m actually glad those hard things happened to me, because I can see how they made me a better person today”. Not that OGSF is a bad experience, but it is painful.
With girls, I get it. I’m in a similar boat with my own obsessive issues. I deal with it better than I use to and can disconnect from it, but it’s definitely annoying regardless. It’s mostly about healing the parts of me who are looking outside myself for things I can provide myself. Part of that process is dealing with the painful things in the way of that. Weirdly enough a lot of UMS2 is pointing me towards women indirectly. Either that or it’s just massive resistance lol.