10-09-2023, 12:47 PM
“Releasing my ego” is…interesting. I don’t know how much I’m releasing my ego, rather than releasing unproductive elements of my identity to which I’m holding on.
For example, I realised that I’ve been using innocence as a self-preservation mechanism. If I can maintain my innocence, I won’t be attacked/punished/etc. This was developed growing up as a foreigner in a country where I had to jump through hoops to prove that I was not one of “them.” This is preventing me from expressing interest in women. I can’t show my interest in a woman, and maintain my innocence if my attentions are not well received, at the same time.
Is this something that would have been dealt with through OGSF or EPRHA? I’m highly skeptical. I don’t think that it’s something that needs to be healed. This is a part of my identity that’s blocking DMSI.
I realised that this is why I’ve been wanting access to DMSI v3.3. I remember a DMSI v3.3 journal where someone had gone back to their childhood home and had a major breakthrough that was similar to my insight except much more poignant. I could be wrong, but I don’t think DMSI v3.5 has a component designed to identify and overcome counterproductive beliefs and fragments of identity.
For example, I realised that I’ve been using innocence as a self-preservation mechanism. If I can maintain my innocence, I won’t be attacked/punished/etc. This was developed growing up as a foreigner in a country where I had to jump through hoops to prove that I was not one of “them.” This is preventing me from expressing interest in women. I can’t show my interest in a woman, and maintain my innocence if my attentions are not well received, at the same time.
Is this something that would have been dealt with through OGSF or EPRHA? I’m highly skeptical. I don’t think that it’s something that needs to be healed. This is a part of my identity that’s blocking DMSI.
I realised that this is why I’ve been wanting access to DMSI v3.3. I remember a DMSI v3.3 journal where someone had gone back to their childhood home and had a major breakthrough that was similar to my insight except much more poignant. I could be wrong, but I don’t think DMSI v3.5 has a component designed to identify and overcome counterproductive beliefs and fragments of identity.