11-11-2021, 04:48 PM
102 days/ Cycle 21 (3 Months)
I have been doing 3 loops ocean masked 27/30 3 days on/ 2 off. I found out I used up all my unemployment money for the year. They went back to the old way of doing things before Covid. I have been fearing the job market, it feels like no matters how many interviews I go on. It is so hard to find a job, last Thursday I went on interview I haven't heard anything. I will call them tomorrow to do a follow-up. Now, I started looking for part time work so I had so money coming in. Hopefully, I find something soon.
I started listening to Ocean hybrid. I had three dreams:
1st one I was with this gorgeous woman. We were dancing at this fancy party and we were all deck out in beautiful outfits. Than, I turn around we were wearing basic clothes. I was thing either way it doesn't make a difference they are just clothes.
2nd one I was with a beautiful celebrity that I always wanted to be with and I was having a good time. Thoughts in my head was I am not good enough. I don't even have a job, how can I be with her.
3rd one I was with this couple who was happy & in love. I don't know what we were doing, all I remember was we were hanging out. I was with somebody too. I recall who it was. I remember hugging them and when I hug her I was crying & thinking I wanted to be in love like that too. I felt like I will never get what i want. I guess fear of getting what you really want.
Should I continue with Hybrid or go back to mask?
I have been doing 3 loops ocean masked 27/30 3 days on/ 2 off. I found out I used up all my unemployment money for the year. They went back to the old way of doing things before Covid. I have been fearing the job market, it feels like no matters how many interviews I go on. It is so hard to find a job, last Thursday I went on interview I haven't heard anything. I will call them tomorrow to do a follow-up. Now, I started looking for part time work so I had so money coming in. Hopefully, I find something soon.
I started listening to Ocean hybrid. I had three dreams:
1st one I was with this gorgeous woman. We were dancing at this fancy party and we were all deck out in beautiful outfits. Than, I turn around we were wearing basic clothes. I was thing either way it doesn't make a difference they are just clothes.
2nd one I was with a beautiful celebrity that I always wanted to be with and I was having a good time. Thoughts in my head was I am not good enough. I don't even have a job, how can I be with her.
3rd one I was with this couple who was happy & in love. I don't know what we were doing, all I remember was we were hanging out. I was with somebody too. I recall who it was. I remember hugging them and when I hug her I was crying & thinking I wanted to be in love like that too. I felt like I will never get what i want. I guess fear of getting what you really want.
Should I continue with Hybrid or go back to mask?