01-15-2020, 02:42 PM
Blooming on 4 loops currently. I decided to drop a blooming day and am now I am at 1 day (4 loops) on, 3 days (0 loops) off. Not sure what pushed me to drop a day, I guess it is what I intuitively felt was optimal. The 1 on / 3 off with 4 loops has been the strongest yet and I am considering keeping it at 4 loops on that schedule for another cycle or two. I know changes are happening, some are not so positive with more anger and irritability but I can also feel something deep down brewing, something is building and I know I will break through some mental and emotional barriers at some point. More good news is that I am feeling more focused but in a less rigid way, almost like I feel there is no rush for anything but I will be productive anyway, in a flow-like state, and see what happens. It's nice to have this feeling again, that is best described as; I can be successful without OCD like pass/fail self-discipline strategies. I normally find it hard to explain clearly my thoughts and feelings but I believe good stuff is happening with UMS. The dreams are still going off like crazy. Last night I remember one being about these huge black spiders that were nesting on the inside of my shed door and I finally thought "I am going to do something about this". I went and sprayed all the spiders and their nests with a real hatred, and even ended up saturated in the poison spray myself. It was pretty intense!