02-09-2016, 03:05 PM
I continue to 'solidify' internally. Confidence is more consistent and I am driven to be productive. I am learning to feel attractive as I continue to notice women, especially at the gym, notice me. I'm not the biggest or the tallest but I am good looking and I see/feel the eyes on me. I keep saying this but I have the potential to be an absolute killer. I am less concerned with empire building right now as I am with sowing my wild oats. I have a combined decade of bitter, self-imposed celibacy to get out of my system.
So while AM6 has done a lot for me (and I've done a lot for myself), I am not completely aligned with its intentions. Prior to running subs, I avoided relations with women out of shame and low self-esteem. AM has, by design, built me up inside but I've also noted a growing indifference to women. It makes me more comfortable around them, and I'm sure it adds to my desirability, but I realized that it also supports the avoidance I'm used to. So despite the fact that my review of AM demonstrates that I should run it yet again, it'll be a while before I do.
Here's the thing. If women find me this sexy after a year of AM6, what kind of success would I have if I actually ran Sex Magnet? I think my reality would explode, but I'm not willing to put myself out there yet. My last physical limitation is penis size (and stamina), so I am devoting myself to enlargement. I am treating this with the same level of commitment and attention to detail as weight lifting. It wasn't long ago that I was unhappy with my body and discouraged by how much time and effort it would take to change it. Well I've transformed my body and learned to love the process along with the result. I remind myself that time is going to pass whether I do anything or not. I would rather look down in 2-3 years at a huge dick and be happy that I put in the work, than burn with regret that I did nothing. It's as simple as that. Emotions are irrelevant in light of this fact. Doesn't mean I'm not going to go 2-3 more years without sex. I want to be 8 x 6, and right now I'm 5 3/8 x 4 3/4. I'll be ready to f***k once I'm nearing 6.5 x 5.5, and I figure it'll take a year to achieve that.
I'm going to use that time to run subs that'll prepare me for SM3: ASC 5G, OGSF 5G, and maybe OPE 5G. I'm still thinking about order and duration, but I'm dying to start something as early as tonight.
My biggest concern is the motivation I have right now being derailed by resistance from the next program I run. I also have a fear that I will become complacent if ASC and/or OGSF makes me comfortable enough with my junk as is, both because I finally have the right mindset to see the enlargement process through, and because I fear exposing myself and being ridiculed. I know these fears might sound irrational, but I'm being honest.
So while AM6 has done a lot for me (and I've done a lot for myself), I am not completely aligned with its intentions. Prior to running subs, I avoided relations with women out of shame and low self-esteem. AM has, by design, built me up inside but I've also noted a growing indifference to women. It makes me more comfortable around them, and I'm sure it adds to my desirability, but I realized that it also supports the avoidance I'm used to. So despite the fact that my review of AM demonstrates that I should run it yet again, it'll be a while before I do.
Here's the thing. If women find me this sexy after a year of AM6, what kind of success would I have if I actually ran Sex Magnet? I think my reality would explode, but I'm not willing to put myself out there yet. My last physical limitation is penis size (and stamina), so I am devoting myself to enlargement. I am treating this with the same level of commitment and attention to detail as weight lifting. It wasn't long ago that I was unhappy with my body and discouraged by how much time and effort it would take to change it. Well I've transformed my body and learned to love the process along with the result. I remind myself that time is going to pass whether I do anything or not. I would rather look down in 2-3 years at a huge dick and be happy that I put in the work, than burn with regret that I did nothing. It's as simple as that. Emotions are irrelevant in light of this fact. Doesn't mean I'm not going to go 2-3 more years without sex. I want to be 8 x 6, and right now I'm 5 3/8 x 4 3/4. I'll be ready to f***k once I'm nearing 6.5 x 5.5, and I figure it'll take a year to achieve that.
I'm going to use that time to run subs that'll prepare me for SM3: ASC 5G, OGSF 5G, and maybe OPE 5G. I'm still thinking about order and duration, but I'm dying to start something as early as tonight.
My biggest concern is the motivation I have right now being derailed by resistance from the next program I run. I also have a fear that I will become complacent if ASC and/or OGSF makes me comfortable enough with my junk as is, both because I finally have the right mindset to see the enlargement process through, and because I fear exposing myself and being ridiculed. I know these fears might sound irrational, but I'm being honest.
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.