02-06-2016, 03:12 AM
(02-05-2016, 10:02 AM)Alpha360 Wrote: Stage 6 Day 20:
I didn't want to report about it because it feels stupid to report about that but I will.
It's like I don't care about the consequences about my action anymore, not completely but much more than I used to.
Example:
- I don't mind drinking some alcohol at night just for fun, just one drink. Before I would be more careful about it, I almost never drunk alone at home.
- I don't mind smoking a cigarette for the same reason.
- Went to a perfume shop recently and I completely ignore a woman working there, she ask me some stuff and I barely replied her.
- I didn't mind saying what I think to a recruiter, I told him straight I didn't do what he ask me to do last time we met because I was working on something. I was a little surprised that I would go that far.
- It seems the same thing is happening on the forum, I say what's on my mind without thinking about the consequence. Sorry if I say something that would hurt someone's feeling or if it doesn't agree with the forum rules, I need to adapt my behavior and it's not easy to do, it seems like a completely normal thing to do so. I had to force myself to write that, I feel like it's stupid to say it. At the same I'm proud about what I did so it's hard to say I'm sorry about it. Like I say I don't care anymore about any consequences, no fear, no guilt, no shame, no care. I need to think twice before I post something on the forum. I might need to take a week off.
Being more fearless has it's pros and cons I would say. It seems a lot of my timidity was based on fear.
It feels so stupid to report about that. It's no wonder some guys doesn't report anymore.
Especially if their motivation for reporting was based on fear or to get validation, need for attention, etc.
thats why i ran stage 6 for two months i enjoyed my asshole behavior but now its enough
