01-21-2016, 03:10 PM
(01-20-2016, 09:44 PM)essy Wrote: tl;dr If you want to go straight to the point, skip the small text. However, you might find it insightful/amusing.
It took the Walking Dead to help me realize something. As I was watching the show, I began to picture myself under the same circumstances, and I became increasingly uncomfortable because instead of imagining myself being strong and resilient, I pictured myself feeling anxious and crippled by a sense of impending doom. The thoughts that produced these feelings were that of danger being around ever corner, having to hold myself together so as not to be a liability to others—and folding under the pressure, the stress of having to manage multiple personalities in a high stress environment with the looming threat of conspiracy against me, the point of fighting to survive such a horrible reality—why not just off yourself or succumb to the zombies?, and the overall victim feeling that I'm being encroached upon by multiple forces in a losing battle. Now that's a lot of doom and gloom and it's all hypothetical, but I want to be self-assured enough to imagine myself coping and leading in a scenario like that. If you think about it that show is a metaphor for life because the only guarantee we have is death, there are always forces working against you, and to get anywhere you have to have fight in you. You have to generate your own resolve and have the tenacity to create happiness.
I have debated long and hard about whether to run OGSF or ASC and I've arrived at the conclusion that 99% of my fears stem from an underestimation of (or downright disbelief in) myself. I need confidence, and I need it now.
Enter the rat analogy:
There is a rat in your basement. It shits everywhere. Targeting fears would be like cleaning up the shit. But if you don't deal with the rat, it continues to shit. ASC is the exterminator. First you kill the rat, then you clean up the shit.
AM6.II is officially done. Review to follow. ASC is next.
Lol nice analogy. ASC seems like a good call. I ran it once, I think it was the 4G version can't remember. Anyway it was a really good sub, I found myself taking on tasks that usually filled me with anxiety with ease and procrastination went down too.
Now on the subject of zombies. I'd be right there with you with those feelings. I wouldn't be able to stop those. But you know what? I'd bet you'd be a survivor. And I'd bet you'd be able to handle it more than someone who hasn't encounter much turmoil in their life. Besides I trust the person who admits they are scared more than the person that tries to pretend they aren't.
