01-16-2016, 11:11 AM
(01-16-2016, 08:27 AM)alden Wrote: I haven't been updating this journal for a while. I'm on a bus right now, and I have time to do it, so I'll do it.
I found out that there's no greater priority in my life right now than to improve my game. Oneitis wasn't gone completely, it's there whenever I see the girl. I grew so dissatisfied with my job and the uncomfortable lifestyle I have in this town that I explicitly told my boss in an Alpha way, "This place no longer suits me, I have to explore my life." He respects that, but personally, I don't feel like respecting him.
I went to a bootcamp of a famous pickup mentor in this country, and after the 3rd night game, he told me straight, "At first, I saw nothing attractive in you, and it seems you did not change a little. Love yourself man." That kinda hurts.
I lost in a week all the mass I gained from months working out in the gym and eating well (note that I'm really very thin). I went back to habitual fapping, though I know I shouldn't be doing it. My life isn't in anyway great right now--game, job, business--but I have so much hope for the near future.
Hang in there man! Just get to hitting the gym and building your life. Even if at first you don't feel like doing full on workouts again, do little things like 10-20 pushups when you first wake up. Get in the habit of doing that and you'll want to do more.
And out of curiosity, which company/instructor did you do your bootcamp with? If I was ever going to do one, I'd go with RSD or Vercetti & Sterline from LoveSystems who teach natural game.
