Shannon's Journal

[Cortez]

Two things I want to say Shannon. First off, this AM2011 thing is fricking rediculous. I'm on Stage 5 and I feel like I've gone through years of inner game training. The only thing I don't like is the wee-bit of insecurity that is there due to not starting AM2011 from Stage 1 instead of 4 but who cares! This sub has definitely brought out the humorous, happy-go lucky side of me much more and socializing is now much easier compared to two years ago.

2nd, there is one problem that has arisen since using the Alpha Set that is both good and bad. I don't worry as much. This is great because who wants to worry? The bad thing is that I feel like it's hurting my motivation. In school, I've felt unmotivated and uncaring. It's like my procrastination has been amplified to a whole other level now because I'm now so relaxed and nonchalant that I don't CARE and don't force myself to get things done like I should. But the thing is part of me does care, and I'm really worried because I've dug myself into an academic hole. I can definitely pull my grades up, but this problem has to be solved now because I'm taking rediculously hard classes for my final 2 semesters and this "don't give a flip" attitude isn't going to fly in these classes

So my question is this: why is this happening and what subs or maybe just what personal advice since you were also a college studen can you give me because I'm determined not to let this happen again.

PS: I do have $15 left on my GC so money isn't too much of a problem.

PPS: Started using Seize the Day last week, obviously too early to say if it's working.

This happened to me too! My indifference spread to where I was so happy and non-chalant that I procrastinated on things. This went away after stage 6, though and I was just left with the positive asoects. Also, it helps to have direction. Without that I would probably have no problem just lounging about. The Seize the Day sub helped me out with motivation too, so maybe it will help you out. Also, after my run of the alpha set was done, I started listening to Absolute self confidence again and that sub seriously motivates me to do things. Now my motivation is at an all time high.