01-06-2016, 07:18 PM
@ffaux Best response ever.
@ffaux, CatMan:
I didn't think I was done with AM6, but I did feel that I was close. No doubt it is a fundamental program; I just didn't want to run it again right away. I've been frustrated by having to devote 4 of my waking hours to it. This late in the game, I was expecting to coast to completion. I was also looking forward to running OGSF 5G.
A long time ago, I was excited by the prospect of running AM6 three times in a row and being the first to journal about it. I was also concerned about the potential loss of effectiveness by not running the program three times consecutively vs doing so. Three in a row would be an ideal bombardment on the mind. What you guys are saying about late resistance as an indication that the program is almost planted makes sense. Seems like it would be a shame to stop the arsenal.
I need to play devil's advocate too. All of this garbage came up when I got sick (and I still am), and I've written about the conditioned response I have to feeling ill. It's similar to when I had a lot of anxiety and it was always highest in the morning because my mind wasn't sharp enough to fight it. I think it's reasonable that I should be headstrong even when I'm sick. My response to this flu has been excessive, and I suspect that resistance is part of it because I didn't even feel this crappy mentally and emotionally when I had surgery a few months ago—mind you it was in the interest of transforming my body.
I should also point out that I started drinking coffee again regularly (1-2 a day) about 2 months ago. I've had very little caffeine over the past few years because I used to be sensitive to it and it stirred my anxiety. It's doesn't create anxiety for me now, but I have randomly been feeling anxiety over the past month and the odd time I have a coffee, it goes away. I think it's my body expressing a caffeine addiction because the anxiety is similar to when I stopped taking painkillers, and I haven't felt anxiety like that from subs since my first run of AM.
#endrant
@ffaux, CatMan:
I didn't think I was done with AM6, but I did feel that I was close. No doubt it is a fundamental program; I just didn't want to run it again right away. I've been frustrated by having to devote 4 of my waking hours to it. This late in the game, I was expecting to coast to completion. I was also looking forward to running OGSF 5G.
A long time ago, I was excited by the prospect of running AM6 three times in a row and being the first to journal about it. I was also concerned about the potential loss of effectiveness by not running the program three times consecutively vs doing so. Three in a row would be an ideal bombardment on the mind. What you guys are saying about late resistance as an indication that the program is almost planted makes sense. Seems like it would be a shame to stop the arsenal.
I need to play devil's advocate too. All of this garbage came up when I got sick (and I still am), and I've written about the conditioned response I have to feeling ill. It's similar to when I had a lot of anxiety and it was always highest in the morning because my mind wasn't sharp enough to fight it. I think it's reasonable that I should be headstrong even when I'm sick. My response to this flu has been excessive, and I suspect that resistance is part of it because I didn't even feel this crappy mentally and emotionally when I had surgery a few months ago—mind you it was in the interest of transforming my body.
I should also point out that I started drinking coffee again regularly (1-2 a day) about 2 months ago. I've had very little caffeine over the past few years because I used to be sensitive to it and it stirred my anxiety. It's doesn't create anxiety for me now, but I have randomly been feeling anxiety over the past month and the odd time I have a coffee, it goes away. I think it's my body expressing a caffeine addiction because the anxiety is similar to when I stopped taking painkillers, and I haven't felt anxiety like that from subs since my first run of AM.
#endrant
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