Metamorphosis: AM6 (...) « DAOS (32 da) + LGOPR (9 da)

[alden]

I started reading John Alexander's book on alpha male. In an instant, my oneitis receded. The dark side of which is I see every girl now as a closet slut. There are no more "angels", no more "princesses". Women are made to want to be fucked, and men are born to fuck them all. If ever these thoughts came across my mind, say 2 days ago, I might have gone to the mountain and do mental cleansing, because I wasn't comfortable thinking about these things. I guess, I've been so angry for quite some time now, and AM6 Stage 1 brought that to the surface.

A 30-something married coworker attempted to kiss me on my cheek—she's the one who backed away though. A sweet teenager smiled at me in a charming way—I did not return the smile though. I approached a new hiredgun in the gym, no interesting reaction, they're busy.

Now, before I sleep, I feel regret. I was more heartbroken 7 years ago than I've been lately, and yet I only started learning about women and attraction these past few months. So, I've been a nice guy for such a long long time! If only I'd known what I know now, I might have laid at least 3 interesting girls within that period, because I had all the chance and they were attracted to me. But I was a dork, so nothing happened till other guys got them.

So far, that's how my AM6 Stage 1 has been going.