The contrast between highs and lows from the beginning of stage 6 appears to be levelling off, which lines up with being 2 weeks into the stage. The exhaustion from simply listening to stage 6 has also gone down considerably.
I haven't felt like a rock star during this stage yet, and I had a similar experience during the last month of my first run. For every a-ha moment in earlier stages there were proportionate lows, and maybe what feels alien during stage 6 is experiencing a steady alpha state without the peaks and valleys.
I was pretty 'on' yesterday. I notice my own alpha behaviour and much of it feels natural. I also let much less about the past get me down, which was a huge burden when I started with AM a year ago.
I did however identify something which I've never branded as shame until now: I've always hated having pictures from my childhood on display because they reveal just how fat and pathetic I was. I am most proud of who I am now, inside and out, and the shame I feel, especially in the presence of others, is revealing that I wasn't always this way. There is a dramatically sharp contrast between Essy then and Essy now. I have very little respect for who and I what I was. I feel compelled to hide the same shame that drove me to change.
I haven't felt like a rock star during this stage yet, and I had a similar experience during the last month of my first run. For every a-ha moment in earlier stages there were proportionate lows, and maybe what feels alien during stage 6 is experiencing a steady alpha state without the peaks and valleys.
I was pretty 'on' yesterday. I notice my own alpha behaviour and much of it feels natural. I also let much less about the past get me down, which was a huge burden when I started with AM a year ago.
I did however identify something which I've never branded as shame until now: I've always hated having pictures from my childhood on display because they reveal just how fat and pathetic I was. I am most proud of who I am now, inside and out, and the shame I feel, especially in the presence of others, is revealing that I wasn't always this way. There is a dramatically sharp contrast between Essy then and Essy now. I have very little respect for who and I what I was. I feel compelled to hide the same shame that drove me to change.
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
