12-15-2015, 04:24 PM
So finals are almost over so I've had time to think and write about what's happened so far in my Am6 journey....
I've made some great loyal friends which is hard for me in the beggining. The only set back is there sometimes when I'm in social situation I feel everything I do is kinda awkward. I'm more comfortable in social situations, sometimes I'm uneasy but after awhile I get comfortable. Before Am I was so uneasy in public with anxiety crawling up my ass.
Approaching women is still an issue because it seems like a big mountain to get over. I've also had weird strange dreams lately. Some very weird that I can't explain and others were great. the weird dream started when tons of ugly girls chasing that I didn't like, like aggressively chasing me to have sex with me. Then after I'm caught I get chained up but in some way I get out of the chains and take off and go back home. I go around asking people how to get to city, then I end up meeting a guy who's in the military and he tries to get me to buy him a ticket using a canned salesperson line. Then he just walks off and his friend asks me " did you actually think he was serious"? I end up meeting a friend, a random friend who I tell everything that happened.
The way I interpreted the dream is when I was young I was always taken advantage by guys who were bigger, higher status then me. I've always found myself getting pursued by women that were ugly physically and personality wise. I think that's why I've felt something weird in me during social situations that I haven't felt before Am6, I've found it hard to trust people which leads to closeness, which leads to introvertness, which leads to shyness, which leads to awkward moments with women. Also when I went out in public if get nervous because when I was young I used to get teased a lot and subconsciously I paired being in big social situations with something bad. But with Am6 I'm slowing taking my power back. I didn't stand up for myself back then but now...whoo I'm considered an asshole because I've called out people for trying to put me down. Though I wish I could tone it down, I've been a solid man regardless. Also I have no urgency to have sex anymore, I know a couple guys here were talking about running Am6 till the urge to have sex was on so here I am. It seriously scares me sometimes cause the urge is not there anymore. I feel like I could run Am6 one more time lol.
I've made some great loyal friends which is hard for me in the beggining. The only set back is there sometimes when I'm in social situation I feel everything I do is kinda awkward. I'm more comfortable in social situations, sometimes I'm uneasy but after awhile I get comfortable. Before Am I was so uneasy in public with anxiety crawling up my ass.
Approaching women is still an issue because it seems like a big mountain to get over. I've also had weird strange dreams lately. Some very weird that I can't explain and others were great. the weird dream started when tons of ugly girls chasing that I didn't like, like aggressively chasing me to have sex with me. Then after I'm caught I get chained up but in some way I get out of the chains and take off and go back home. I go around asking people how to get to city, then I end up meeting a guy who's in the military and he tries to get me to buy him a ticket using a canned salesperson line. Then he just walks off and his friend asks me " did you actually think he was serious"? I end up meeting a friend, a random friend who I tell everything that happened.
The way I interpreted the dream is when I was young I was always taken advantage by guys who were bigger, higher status then me. I've always found myself getting pursued by women that were ugly physically and personality wise. I think that's why I've felt something weird in me during social situations that I haven't felt before Am6, I've found it hard to trust people which leads to closeness, which leads to introvertness, which leads to shyness, which leads to awkward moments with women. Also when I went out in public if get nervous because when I was young I used to get teased a lot and subconsciously I paired being in big social situations with something bad. But with Am6 I'm slowing taking my power back. I didn't stand up for myself back then but now...whoo I'm considered an asshole because I've called out people for trying to put me down. Though I wish I could tone it down, I've been a solid man regardless. Also I have no urgency to have sex anymore, I know a couple guys here were talking about running Am6 till the urge to have sex was on so here I am. It seriously scares me sometimes cause the urge is not there anymore. I feel like I could run Am6 one more time lol.