12-13-2015, 10:50 AM
(This post was last modified: 12-15-2015, 08:17 PM by hiddenalias.)
DAY 3
10.5 hours listened (ultrasonic at max volume) using stereo as I slept
NO EARBUDS TODAY
Dreams:
I had one specific vivid dream; I think I had a particular job and the one's that were my bosses was Ed O' Neill (yeah imagine that) and the owner of the preschool where I was a subcontractor. So Ed was planning a getaway and invited me along; I on the other hand had to decline because of some "duties" I wanted to stay dedicated to. I think I was also talking it over with the owner about something tragic; and they decided the guy from Parenthood (the father of the autistic son) Peter Krauss? magically he appears into my dreams and they wanted to "kill" him off for the show. Ed also was trying to get back together with the owner but he knew it was over but wanted to share some last good serious memories showing pictures on a wall and talking about them with her. I know this is just a dream, vivid as it may have felt, had some random stupid stuff in it too, so the toilet was getting flushed at the end of Ed's speech with the owner. I was behind them observing his speech. Also, there were 3 other dudes that I had "partnership" with. I forgot what the item was and why they were there between Ed's and the owner's place of work. But they wanted to discontinue what they started and I think I felt as if I was trying to persuade them not to stop the production and they gave me a feel as if they wanted to "think it over". Finally, the last thing I remember is that after the declination of Ed's request for the trip, I decided to take a long walk and I saw these mad, huge amount of people 'hanging out' outside. I don't know where I was going but after it was over, I came back to Ed's shop. This is not a smooth transition of the dream but I am only giving details as to what I remember.
(end of dreams)
So I have noticed that I was more congruent in my words with someone I was talking to I think; usually I had to search for words to connect to complete my sentences. My finding of the right words has been reduced sort of but not fully there I'd say maybe 10 - 20% improvement? Even when I was leaving a voicemail to another party, I was fully ready in my verbiage selection to tell them something without having to re-record a voicemail several time until it sounds 'right'; just this time said one clear sentence and explanation in one shot and didn't have to re-record like I usually did; also my memory recall has slightly improved. Today, I also was watching a Youtube video on a 'how-to' and yeah I was still trying to grasp what was being explained but I kind of got the key details that I still didn't understand what was going on but I think I "feel" the key points being grasped but not fully there yet as I had to rewind a few times to test my absorption of knowledge.....seems like a potential feeling I think. I also feel more "firm" up there in the brain like I've never felt before.....blood pumping is definitely a feeling I am getting right now but also like this firm pressure around my brain that I've never felt. I also am still seeing a bit 'in the now' clarity that I've never experienced. I donno if it's just me or is this really the sub making its beginning presence of possibilities....
10.5 hours listened (ultrasonic at max volume) using stereo as I slept
NO EARBUDS TODAY
Dreams:
I had one specific vivid dream; I think I had a particular job and the one's that were my bosses was Ed O' Neill (yeah imagine that) and the owner of the preschool where I was a subcontractor. So Ed was planning a getaway and invited me along; I on the other hand had to decline because of some "duties" I wanted to stay dedicated to. I think I was also talking it over with the owner about something tragic; and they decided the guy from Parenthood (the father of the autistic son) Peter Krauss? magically he appears into my dreams and they wanted to "kill" him off for the show. Ed also was trying to get back together with the owner but he knew it was over but wanted to share some last good serious memories showing pictures on a wall and talking about them with her. I know this is just a dream, vivid as it may have felt, had some random stupid stuff in it too, so the toilet was getting flushed at the end of Ed's speech with the owner. I was behind them observing his speech. Also, there were 3 other dudes that I had "partnership" with. I forgot what the item was and why they were there between Ed's and the owner's place of work. But they wanted to discontinue what they started and I think I felt as if I was trying to persuade them not to stop the production and they gave me a feel as if they wanted to "think it over". Finally, the last thing I remember is that after the declination of Ed's request for the trip, I decided to take a long walk and I saw these mad, huge amount of people 'hanging out' outside. I don't know where I was going but after it was over, I came back to Ed's shop. This is not a smooth transition of the dream but I am only giving details as to what I remember.
(end of dreams)
So I have noticed that I was more congruent in my words with someone I was talking to I think; usually I had to search for words to connect to complete my sentences. My finding of the right words has been reduced sort of but not fully there I'd say maybe 10 - 20% improvement? Even when I was leaving a voicemail to another party, I was fully ready in my verbiage selection to tell them something without having to re-record a voicemail several time until it sounds 'right'; just this time said one clear sentence and explanation in one shot and didn't have to re-record like I usually did; also my memory recall has slightly improved. Today, I also was watching a Youtube video on a 'how-to' and yeah I was still trying to grasp what was being explained but I kind of got the key details that I still didn't understand what was going on but I think I "feel" the key points being grasped but not fully there yet as I had to rewind a few times to test my absorption of knowledge.....seems like a potential feeling I think. I also feel more "firm" up there in the brain like I've never felt before.....blood pumping is definitely a feeling I am getting right now but also like this firm pressure around my brain that I've never felt. I also am still seeing a bit 'in the now' clarity that I've never experienced. I donno if it's just me or is this really the sub making its beginning presence of possibilities....
