12-05-2015, 03:26 AM
I just want to give my understanding of "AM6 didn't work":
When I used AM5 it made me more aggressive standing my point. When I used AM6 it was way more gentle and it didn't feel like much is going on. After it I was glad that I was done and did not want to do it again, cause it felt like nothing happened. When I look at who I was a few years ago and who I am now, it is a noticeable difference. I am not going as far as "more alpha than me is not possible", cause it sure is, but I am really comfortable with being myself. Even though I can feel fear, guilt and shame in moments I am still myself and not attached or dependent on that emotion. I feel fear but the moment I feel it I know what it is and am completely aware that it is a feeling that's trying to take control of me. Actually that one and the wisdom to not have to attack people personally just because they have a different opinion is what is most obvious since I ran AM6. But most of the benefit developed afterwards, not during the run. It was like 3-6 months after that or even until 12 months after that when the growth was still there. Maybe it is just placebo, but I got more mature, calm and centered - and it was not that I could notice it DURING the run, it was way after it.
When I used AM5 it made me more aggressive standing my point. When I used AM6 it was way more gentle and it didn't feel like much is going on. After it I was glad that I was done and did not want to do it again, cause it felt like nothing happened. When I look at who I was a few years ago and who I am now, it is a noticeable difference. I am not going as far as "more alpha than me is not possible", cause it sure is, but I am really comfortable with being myself. Even though I can feel fear, guilt and shame in moments I am still myself and not attached or dependent on that emotion. I feel fear but the moment I feel it I know what it is and am completely aware that it is a feeling that's trying to take control of me. Actually that one and the wisdom to not have to attack people personally just because they have a different opinion is what is most obvious since I ran AM6. But most of the benefit developed afterwards, not during the run. It was like 3-6 months after that or even until 12 months after that when the growth was still there. Maybe it is just placebo, but I got more mature, calm and centered - and it was not that I could notice it DURING the run, it was way after it.
